well...juz did something wrong and i was branded ignorant...well...true to a large extent. Hope tt this incident wun strain mi relationship wif anyone..

haha it's a wonderful and great day todae man! for starters...i called seok fun as soon as i got back frrom mi piano lesson and man it juz felt so good...so natural...i mean it's like din tok to her since the june holidays and relly miss talking to her so much man! haha relly relly veh good conversation! thx seok for cheering mi up! let's be happy in sch nowadays kk??

After hanging up the phone i went to church for the friday service and man...i witness a miracle man!! a real miracle! Anywae...b4 tt, the pastor was sharing the vision tt God has given to him and tt is to win the lost pple for Him! haha and to pray to be a PDA christian...yes zixu...PDA..haha which stands for...
Personal revival
Divine appointment
Active obedience...
well i prayed for divine appointment so tt God will lead mi to pple tt he wants mi to bring back into the His kingdom...and so after service i left church and on the way home..suddenly mi phone rang and i was quite shocked..It's lenette, a fren tt i have who is in sec4 and we used to be quite close only to lose contact for close to 2 years liao...and man...it's relly a miracle for her to call mi after 2 years...and after mi prayer...

It's relly a miracle man!! haha and i'm gonna start to love pple all over again! And to continue to tok to pple! yea feels so good man! haha

Recently have been studying in sch and i was relly appalled tt i din haf much knowledge bout j1's work at all...well..juz wanna get mi 4As now. Studying wif zixu jas and binh is certainly fun...we laugh quite alot, talk quite alot, study quite alot, joke quite alot...such tt everything is balance...and relly studying ina study grop relly enabled mi to learn things faster...can argue stuff tt i dun understand out wif Mr always-tynk-he's-rite aka zixu the pig...

Friendship cannot be formed overnight...but certainly can be broken overnight...i relly wanna knoe!! haha

i dun ever wanna affect pple wif mi thoughts and words and actions...but such is the beauty of human relationships...i affect u, u affect mi..because i am affected, u see mi get affected and u get affected...and when i see u get affected, i get even more affected...and it juz continues spiralling out of control. If only i can force miself to smile. Actually i can...haha

anywae...if u all want mi to intro a nice webbie...then u all better start begging mi!! haha

when will i ever wake up...anywae..juz came back from sch after a long day of studying todaea and of course talking to zixu for bout 1hr plus...sitting at the foot of the overhead bridge outside our sch...juz talking...relly enjoyed it...although sitting in tt dirty place...and well...the night relly calms mi..soothes mi and of course makes mi feel better...all mi woes i pour onto him...all the negative thoughts tt i had during the day i shared wif him, juz felt so natural...juz felt wad it is like to have a close guy fren..haha

Many things relly...have been troubling mi..and well i can't solve so many of these problems..many pple are right, some things in life are juz beyond our control and it will not be rainbows all the time. I shan't complain, blame it on mi own over-sensitivity and mi cowardly bahavior. Seriously, i shld learn how to blame miself for some things sometimes. Y do i feel so jealous?

I dunnoe wad else to add. Y do i get a strange stranger-like feeling? why..oh why..

talked to zixu until early sun morning at 4am!! haha crazy...but nice conversation...1 of the best i had with him so far!

yeapyeap! still having the euphoria of the saturday night's concert even as i woke up on sun morning...or rather afternoon...to mi cell group leader's phone call reminding mi to meet them an a few mins...which was supposed to be after sermon...but guess wad i was still in bed...so i rushed to the 3rd service at 12pm...and promptly reached at about 12.45pm..then i heard the sermon...relly felt veh guilty about some stuff...and well b4 service ended..senior pastor told a real story...a miracle...and after tt i began to cry quite terribly and uncontrollably..luckily i went late and sat individually at the back...cried throught the prayer and worship session which was about 10min...it's not sobbing man..it's relly crying...mucus and all...the worst time i've ever cried in mi life...God relly touched mi at tt point of time man...can feel his presence so close to mi...

After service immediately went to clean off all the mucus and tears and everything...haha then go prepare for bbq at eric's house...it's a cell group bbq lar...where we invited our other half of another cell group which we multiplied from...glad to see those guys again...

b4 bbq, i went swimming at eric's condo...but din bring trunks, so i borrowed a pants frrom mi fren...and went into the pool...wif tt pants...sans underwear...haha...hope nobody saw anything..heh and the bbq was relly great...i helped to break the joints of the chicken...so tt can skew them properly, easier to cook too...great man...

And mi fren came back from the mission field recently in central asia...and he's veh inspiring...the stories and experiences he share...hope tt i will get to go to the mission field in future...

things have been wierd these few days...or issit juz mi...can't understand miself sometimes...i juz affect miself...and tynk too much nonsense...and also can't believe tt i'm so cowardly now..where's all mi guts? anywae..have been visiting a really nice website..heh heh..dunnoe if shld share wif u guys...only if u guys beg mi!! wahaha

anywae yue yiao or aka ah yiao's words of wisdom:

the stormiest weather produces the most beautiful rainbows..
 
can stormiest weather produce the most beautiful rainbows?? i suppose tt there must be the sun rays, the ray of hope...now it's relly too stormy..can't see any clouds...coz only when the rays shine thru the numerous droplets will there be the rainbow bursting high up into the sky...haha
 
juz some stray thoughts, hope no one go and read between the lines coz there's nothing! haha

co concert juz ended...and it was a total success man! haha so many pple turned up for the concert and the feeling was juz great man!! haha was so stressed over the camel song coz i din practice tt song much...must relly thank jasmine and zixu and junyuan for turning up..also saw boon cheng! haha nice to see these familiar faces...jas got mi 7 pink roses which were totally beautiful while zixu broke his promise..he said tt he wanted to get mi a cactus but in the end only managed to find a lotus potted plant!! haha and somemore dun dare come on stage and give me...

but it's ok! haha i told everyone tt i'm special. Coz everyone got flowers but only i haf a POTTED PLANT! They were so amused man...thanks lots zixu and jas! love u 2 lots!! muack!! relly so happy to receive the flowers from u 2..haha so happy.

haha and from they say...the 3rd and 5th song frrom the spring suite was the best...haha but i personally liked the 5th song which was the gathering at tianshan the most...it's one of the nicest songs ever man in co...and of course jin laoshi the suona teacher hu performed so well tt the crowd was juz so amazed wif his abilities man...he's damn gifted...

Todae also talked alot wif mi juniors...yue yiao sally daisy..mainly...din relly get to knoe them in the past and i kinda regret it...but well i relly enjoyed miself these few days juz kajiao-ing them and irritating them and juz having fun during the numerous co rehearsals and practices...knoe them better also...i tynk i will definitely miss them...

Of course how can i forget pple from d'euqilco! ?? haha i will definitely miss u guys...all the fun times all the corny jokes and everything lar...u're juz like an extended family...so touched wif the warmth of everyone...the passion for loving pple from our clique...relly relly veh nice feeling! relly must thank u guys! we must go out and haf fun more often kk??

Something zixu juz said tt relly stirred mi heart. He said tt he regretted not joining a musical group, failing to experience the achievement of playing in an orchestra...well i must say tt...although i always lament tt co practices are boring, are a waste of mi time etc...i haf nv ever regretted joining co in mi life...getting to knoe a whole new bunch of pple, sensing the achievement of tt double champion in genting, getting the gold in syf last year...was relly a milestone man...relly a milestone...unbelieveable, i'm already part of njco history...the pioneer batch of elite players...and yes..we're already leaving...which is sad...i still want to taste the success..still want the euphoric feeling when playing together on stage...it's juz so wonderful...and beautiful...flowing wif the music...juz enjoying...

I Love CO! haha and
I Love jasmine and zixu and
I Love limin, ee xuan, weibin, benny, aloysius, shiwen, agnes, xiaoqian, royston, george, alvin and
I Love all mi juniors! and
I Love everyone in CO!

Guess i'll relly miss the practices...haha
A chapter in mi life is closing...sadness..

A memory i wun wanna forget...

The setting is in june...during class chalet...

yar as i was saying mi and zixu and jas decided to go to the beach at the oddest of time at 3am...haha walked so long till we reached the beach and i was like so reluctant to sit on the sand coz i felt tt it's wet and i dun wanna dirty mi pants but well...in the end i still sat down lar...so nice of mi man...

we just sat there and talked about alot of stuff...as in alot alot of stuff...wad u expect rite? we sat there till like 5+...understood all of them even better...these 2 pple have already became tt kinda frens tt i'd gladly give mi life for. I'm so glad that this 2 pple were in mi life and i can tell u...in them i've found life long frens...or friends forever for short...and it's not those juz saysay kinda friends forever but relly relly friends forever man...

anywae...we went back to the beach at about 6 to catch the sunrise and so we took some plastic chairs to escape the dreaded sandflies which feasted on mi zixu and jas's skin while we were sitting on the sand...haha well the breeze was relly strong and we were all starting to feel cold...so jas decided to lean towards zixu hu was sitting in the middle to get his 'warmth' and zixu said, 50cent per 10 joules....hahahaha damn damn farni!! haha and after tt zixu started to beg mi to lean towards him to lend him mi warmth haha which is of course the most among them...given mi lipid or rather, fat percentage...haha and mine was $2 per 10 joules..haha...and he was willing to pay mi after collecting the rent from jas...haha

the time spent wif them is juz magical.

Sitting around

doing nothing

spending time together

sitting on the pavements by the roadside

talking and sharing our perspectives...

drinking...oops oops zixu...wahahaha

then attempting to watch the sunrise...

only to be thwarted by the rain...

walking in the rain, or jogging perhaps...walking is only for zixu the lazy pig...

who is juz too tired to even run..

and then pia-ing back to the chalet at bout 7.15am...

the moment zx and jas got back they juz totally knocked out man...while mi...
i needed to go for co...coz i tot it was at like 9am...dang...only to find out later tt it's 1pm, when i'm already in sch...argh!
and i couldn't sleep in sch...at all...met some co pple hu came to paint banner and i played bridge and daidee again...
co ended at 5...got home at 6...and slept from 7pm till bout 10pm...totally knocked out man...slept for bout 1hour in 2 days of chalet...i'm mad...
anywae tt sums up...the most memorable time...is the time spent wif zx and jas...mi 2 lifelong frens...

1 more day..which is tml, where it'll be the last time i perform wif the orchestra...well, feeling a mixture of sadness and gladness. Glad tt i dun haf to go for practices anymore and sad tt i'll miss a whole bunch of pple like pple from d'euqilco! and of course mi dear juniors. Recently took alot of initiative to go and talk to mi juniors coz i realised tt i actually dunnoe mi juniors at all. Kinda regret tt, because the last few days, i had a lot of fun talking to them bout alot of things like lotr piano and english lit as well as talking bout different sch cultures. nice...

Well..concert tml! and zixu remember to bring the cactus ok?! haha

wierd...totally wierd...the feeling is veh veh wierd...so stranger-like
Guess it's all mi fault lar.

wow!!! superb man! the feeling of playing the stage is relly superb...haha but i tynk i created a big hooha in the concert hall. Because i was afraid of the cold, and having numb and less flexible fingers, i actually brought along mi fav pair of red gloves as well as putting on a huge jacket!! haha many pple stared at mi like some idiot but well, it's for mi own good! haha
 
unfortunately, the gloves din work veh well as time slowly creeped towards mi stage time...argh...was so cold although i'm like so wrapped up lar! haha as i got on stage, i can hear some 'wooooo!!' in the audience haha and they're made by limin and shiwen!! many thx to u gers! u all relly made mi less nervous and more light-hearted! haha i was smiling lar as i was walking towards the piano...then i began mi piece...and all was going well until i made a mistake =x...haha and well a few other mistakes here and there but generally i felt real good as mi starting and ending for the song was superb! haha i tynk it's damn masterful of mi...heh heh...
 
But of course i was unhappy wif mi mistakes lar...but then limin told mi tt i played well, and mi father also told mi that...even some parent...haha she said tt although i you3 shi1 shuui2 zun3 as compared to last year...but i still played well besides mi mistakes~!! haha
 
I'm so happy!!! argh!! Limin said tt i performed masterfully wif all mi movements and expressions...haha thx for consoling mi man!! haha well...mi last year performing since i got to serve ns...i certainly hope mi fans out there...oops...haha do remember mi!! haha jk lar...i hope tt in 3 years time...i'll be back!! and contending for best performer again!! haha shiok!
 
Thx a million limin and shiwen for taking time off to come support mi, i relly appreciate it and for all the pple tt prayed silently for mi or sent mi an sms of encouragement like royston pearleen guozheng and jas! haha u guys rule!! haha u're all mi loyal fans!! haha bhb again haha!
 
I love the piano!

hai...got the navy letter...asking mi to report at sembawang naval base...and must bring swimming trunks too...probably gonna test mi water skills...hai...got this letter means cannot be pilot liao...argh!!!

hai...juz came back from mi piano rehearsal...haha relly relly played like shit...how to answer to shiwen and limin hu bought the piano concert tix?? hmmm...shldn't haf slept so late last nite...i totally had a mental block. Forgot mi fingerings, forgot wad notes to play, forgot when to play which notes...i'm relly the most pathetic...
 
One simple song i haf to stop so many times to correct mi mistakes...coz i juz can't continue after i make those errors...mi concentration juz dissipated...how to play well tml?!?! argh...tynk i gonna sleep early tonight and practice more...
 
Anyone hu read this...pls pray for mi for tml's performance...lotsa prayers needed...

haha todae i feel so much more refreshed after coming back from church...surprisingly, church has always been a veh good place to renew miself weekly...tynk i shld go to church more often to spend time wif God. haha

received mi bdaea card and present from janie todae...it was fabulous man...and i tynk haha God is relly in our lives...coz she actually bought the CD WoW Worship tt i've wanted for so long and i was intending to buy it soon!! wow man! haha and the card...self made and i tynk she spent alot of time on it! well thank u man janie! haha

shall go sleep now and get ready for mi performance on sunday...

hai...been feeling incredibly stressed lately...and hence mi temper has been running real short. Things tt wun affect mi so much in the past can relly get mi relly upset this few days. Piano concert is this sun and i tynk no one is coming to support mi. CO concert is next sun and i tynk no one is coming to support mi either. Bother these concerts are the 2 stupid things that are giving mi all the stress. Besidees, the ticket sales is relly stressing mi out too. For mi piano, i gotta absorb the cost of the tix if no one comes. And for co, i tynk tys will probably do the same. And i tynk tt wad he said was true, i relly dun wanna perform in front of a concert hall tt is only 6% filled. Yes tt's how bad the ticket sales are. 6% only mi goodness and it's only a week away from concert. Have to try to get bout 80% tickets...

Mi piano exam is coming in a month's time and i am still playing like crap. No way will i ever pass wif tt kinda standard. It's grade 8 for heaven's sake. Juz can't believe tt i'm so lazy, not to start practising since last year and now, i stress miself out so much trying to crash course. I feel veh veh frustrated. If i fail grade 8, the next time i get to retake the exam...will be in 2+ years time due to army commitments. damn.

Mi studies are crap too. Doesn't help tt no one is encouraging mi to start studying now. The study environment is no good at all. Everyday i go to sch, i see pple working so hard, tt i get so stressed up. But i can't start. I shld start. But the environment is no good. Instead, i feel discouraged. And mi mind will run wild wif thoughts, with all mi thoughts and values conflicting. I dun wanna hurt pple. But if i dun, i will only hurt miself even more. Zx pls do not discourage mi further. Everytime u start commenting bout pple mugging or wad in our class and tt u can't stand it or wad, do u knoe how much it discourages mi? Coz i dunnoe wad to do. I wanna start, i have no time left. I got too many commitments. Pls dun add to mi burden.

I'm feeling like crap now. Total crap.

hmmm...was juz tynking...been hearing alot of pple keep on saying they wanna try alcohol wanna go clubbing and stuff and i seriously disapprove of it but of course, it's their choice. Most of them will say tt they juz wanna go for the experience, juz experience once in their life but tt's nonsense. Some things in life needs no experience.

Do u hear sane pple go around saying, Hey, let's go experience wad issit like smoking a cigarette!! Or let's go experience the feeling of taking drugs!! Dun worry, it's once in a lifetime!!

Clubbing and boozing is like drugs and cigarettes. It needs no experience. Wad's the pleasure derived from it? It's all self-induced. Tynk about it this way. Beer is so sour, yet pple like to take it. Ego? Or is the pleasure juz self-induced? That u'll be a man if u drink. And the point of boasting to ur peers tt u drank beer and alcohol is of course...part of the self-induced pleasure..

hmmm...anyone reading, pls dun get offended. To no one in particular...juz a general post.

was during civics period when zhenjie reminded mi to confirm the no. of pple going for prom nite in our class. Asked the class and i expected mayb the most bout 5 hands...budden i saw tt seok val and even boon cheng has raise their hands up...so i politely reminded them tt i was asking for pple not going, not pple tt are going, tynking tt they heard mi wrongly, but alas, they've decided not to go.

Well, i got veh disappointed, a bit of a shock, because i did not expect tt type of reception. Relly, but seok was relly nice and all, she even called mi during chem lect to explain to mi, but i still felt veh terrible. Coz i wanted them to go, yet i did not want to force them to do things against their wishes. So i was feeling veh conflicted.

Luckily, in the end, seok and boon cheng and all of them decided to go again!! and they even persuaded sijie to go!! And everyone also tried veh hard to persuade melisa and the others to go...relly..i was quite touched. For those hu are not going, well...i've nothing to say but well...i juz feel sad for u. U might regret it in future, but then again u might not...and if u do regret, well, it's too late. 1 thing for sure is tt this issue has caused alot of unhappiness in the class but nevertheless i relly thank the rest of the class for ur support.

If i offended anyone todae, i'm sorry, juz couldn't relly control mi emotions.

Another thing tt made mi relly angry was yida. I asked him to come wif our class for prom nite but he said tt he was going with oac. I asked him politely lar to come wif our class instead of wif oac and guess his reply...he snapped,' for wad! ' and i told him tt our class were short of pple to form 2 tables and he snapped again,' tt's ur problem!' mi goodness...such self-centeredness, i guess he juz doesn't feel any form of class spirit of any form at all...

I feel so utterly shibai, this whole year, i've been trying to integrate him into the class, make him feel less outcast and all...and now he's actually ostrasizing us man my goodness...such snobbishness, i relly feel tt i did a lousy job at trying to help him. I felt relly pissed after tt and i couldn't hold miself from scolding him...hai...shldn't haf lar...but well..

Anywae, we gonna share a table, 5 seats wif another class, coz we can't find anymore pple to come...sad...

Significance of prom night, mayb can see it as seeing the guys off for army, can say goodbye to ur cca frens, classmates etc too...so many meaningful things happening, juz enjoying tt moment, when we wun tynk of exams anymore, not tynking of the distant future for a moment, juz enjoying together as a class...as a sch...hmmm...

Another thing happened todae tt relly made mi feel like a jerk and so i've finally accepted reality and i accept the final decision tt i've made. Hopefully, pple around mi will not get hurt again.

Hope i made the right choice...

haha thx shiwen for being frank in ur blog and telling mi tt i have poured cold water and i'm glad tt u're not angry wif mi...coz the sole purpose of mi questioning so much is because i dun wan u to fall into another abyss and be hurt all over again...no i definitely do not want u to go through those helluva experiences again!

So here it is...HECK i do miss him! haha Somehow i'm always able to get mi inspirations from ur blog leh shiwen...haha but well, it doesn't relly apply to mi coz i dun relly miss the person i like! haha so can't relly use ur quote. I relly do hope that this long distance relationship of urs will work out and i dun want u to make it work juz to prove tt i'm wrong but rather...i want u to juz concentrate on loving ur guy! Once u lose ur focus, u lose everything. Trust mi! haha so once again...i offer u mi blessings.

Celebrated Yoana's farewell todae, she's a clasmate of mine hu has quit sch and is going to the US or particularly San Francisco to study. She has been enrolled in a local university there to study industrial design! haha Well, the celebration itself was a paradox because farewell's are supposed to be sad, yet i still used the word celebration, coz we indeed got her a cake! We even sang the tune 'Happy farewell to u', to the tune of happy bdae to u! haha ope that she'll remember our class...Got her a earpick, which has a meaningful chinese phrase. Because she does not understand chinese, i haf specifically translated it for her into english in mi card for her. Hope she'll find those words useful...and of course...heh to remember mi whenever she picks her ears!! haha

Relly must thank all the frens were by mi side these few days coz i was rather down and out, and feeling a little dejected. Well...thx!

One last thing...God is relly great and He relly loves us alot!! His heart and His love for the lost is relly touching and i am totally in awe of it...Praise God!!

yeap! 1.30am now...juz came back...haha i still like the train scene alot...haha as usual dumbo elsa was late...if there's anybody hu could be later than mi and zixu...this is the dumbo elsa man!! told her to meet at 9.25pm and in the end she only turned up at like 9.52pm?! Had to jostle past so many pple in the cinema...so paiseh...

At least i enjoyed sitting in the spacious lido 1!! that theatre simply rocks man! so comfortable, got so much leg space etc...love it...

gtg sleep liao...nites..

haha todae went for co and late as usual...hai i'm pathetic man!! haha anywae in practice todae shiwen made a veh shocking statemenT!! One that relly affected mi i guess...coz it was relly too sudden...from the ' you are so damn clueless!! ' to...' i feel so happy now!! ' hmmm...but well...i offer her mi blessings, that's if she wants t in the first place...

Well gotta apologise to her for mi frankness, and i guess i said some things that were mean and well, probably offended limin...mayb it's the moisturiser thing or wad...i'm also not sure since she forgotten wad i said tt offended her...

Wad she said juz made mi realised tt i indeed haf a mouth that is suay...probably she doesn't intend that...but well, this is wad i feel. Not only suay, but always saying wrong things at the wrong time and stuff. Makes mi feel as if everything i've said, or done is wrong. Given also the fact that i haf a loud voice coupled wif an irritating laughter that not many can take...Well, i guess i shall talk less in future, laugh less in future too i suppose.

But other than that, i had a great time seeking God, spending time alone wif God...hmmm, glad that i've read something tt has changed mi way of praying!! so glad now...

Going to celebrate mi sister's bdae now...and also to catch spiderman 2 again wif elsa at 9.45pm!! argh!! how am i gonna get home...probably will reach home at like 2am? argh!!

quite a fun day...during physics practical, mi frens presented mi wif a belated birthday present!! haha and it's a timberland t-shirt, shared by 8 pple!! EIGHT PERSON leh!!! wah lau...so touched...haha the eight pple are...in order of height are...boon cheng, binh, jasmine, valerie, seok fun, xinru, zixu & xu cen!!!! superbly touched...

Haha but wanted to slap zixu todae, coz he said i looked like a luohan fish, wif tt enormous swelling on mi forehead which was caused by some stupid acne...argh!! haha jk lar zixu! haha!

Also...happy bdae boon cheng~!! cherish ur time and ur life well ok??
hai...tt's all...mi boring day...haha

stayed at home todae...din go to sch and i feel quite guilty, to all mi teachers and to all mi frens...though i was a little sick...but that doesn't warrant mi a pass to not come to sch...imagine a sch or class where everyone is like mi, choosing when to come to sch and when not to come...
i tynk i shld now juz wait by the phone for mi form teacher aka gilbert lee to give mi a call...well, he said tt he's gonna call those pple hu failed 2 or more subjects...and i haf already fulfilled tt basic requirement. Juz got news todae tt i ACED mi physics paper wif an 08!! haha wad great news rite? Adding on to the F i got for maths i've effectively qualified for the get-to-know-your-parents category in gilbert lee's mental namelist.
I feel so shibai...nv felt so shibai ever...this kinda results. Suck. Totally.
Moreover mi piano exams are coming, on the 19 August and until now, i still haf not finished learning songs...i relly wonder y i'm such a procrastinator...
This year is destined to be a loser year for mi. Hope i'll be able to graduate for piano and at least get more satisfactory results from mi A levels. I feel so despondent now. Sucks.

went for the ns medical todae and boy, relly waited like siao there...do everything also haf to wait. Haha no worries, mi eagle eyes prevailed once again!! super 6/6 vision but i tynk mi left ear abit cock up liao...other than that i'm superbly fit! PES A...i tynk almost everyone is pes a lar...but quite paiseh in the doctor's office, coz he asked mi to pull down mi pants and mi underwear...so paiseh to like expose...haha then he commented, "Wah!! so huge ar??" hahahaha jk lar...he din say anything...
anywae, juz had a superb talk wif valerie on the phone! haha relly felt comfortable and all...too bad her phone ran out of batt...or else i tynk sure talk until dunnoe when...all in all good day...though mi gums still hurt like siao..

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KINSMEN™ THINKING STYLE
Personal extracts from the ANSIR® 3 Sides of You® book:
1) Family is a common thread running through all they think and do.
2) They are gifted negotiators.
"High energy and organization are hallmarks of these busy individuals. Kinsmen enjoy a wide variety of interests, though for a vast majority music and fitness were found to figure prominently. Others, generally and genuinely "like" wide-smiling and warmly approachable Kinsmen. Most feel safe around them and for good reason. Kinsmen take care of others. Like most logicals, when Kinsmen tackle a job or project, they start from the premise of a well-defined problem and a clear objective. How-ever, in Kinsmen solution systems there is one personality-typical step that differentiates their approach from all others. At set intervals, Kinsmen makes allowance for consensus-taking. All privy and party to outcomes are invited to review their state of progress, to opine, and give their nod of approval before Kinsmen feels confident about proceeding. Not fulfilling obligations, when and as promised, is demoralizing for conscientious Kinsmen. With their highly-evolved sense of responsibility and strong need to please, no other is as self-critical or as quick to don the mantle of blame, as them." ...

Professional insight from WorkforceDNA™
When the dominant strength is Kinsmen, then dominant abilities are:
responsibleness and an evolved sense of fairness


ECCENTRIK™ WORKING STYLE
Personal extracts from the ANSIR® 3 Sides of You® book
1) Professionally, they seek cutting-edge industries or interests.
2) They prefer working alone to teamwork.
"Eccentrik usually decides well-in-advance who may or may not read their resumé. These individuals are success driven, goal-oriented, and astute business people. They participate on turf of their own choosing and keep time by their own watches. As they live their lives on the tottering edge of eccentricity, personally — they seek cutting edges, professionally. Industries, fields, and ventures where success is yet to be proven, rules yet to be written, and environments without cookie-cutter-constraint are where these individualists excel. Eccentrik is not a pie-in-the-sky theorist, though pie-in-the-face is not beneath them. They are three-dimensional business realists for whom an idea without form, function, and marketability is an idea wasted. Theirs is a tactile, profit-oriented relationship with creativity and they tend to thrive on tight deadlines, often purposely mismanaging time to sweeten the challenge with a dollop of their own added pressure. When Eccentrik's head lowers, remarkability's rise portents." ...

Professional insight from WorkforceDNA™
When the dominant strength is Eccentrik, predominant will be:
Inside-the-box innovation

REALIST™ EMOTING STYLE
Personal extracts from the ANSIR® 3 Sides of You® book
1) They are renowned for being quick-tempered.
2) Their love is physically expressed.
"They have supple, well-developed physiques and seem particularly comfortable in their skin. Their characteristic and identifiable walk is purposeful. Their posture is tall, their back straight, and there is a hint of noblesse mixed with vanity in their stride and strut. When physically fit, they epitomize and personify the miracle, perfection, and potent of the human form. They see the human body as both tool and joy. They revel in its practicality and marvel at its pleasure-ability. Realists are the most sexually assertive, experimental, and aggressive of all. When provoked or frustrated, they tend to physically react rather than vocally express. Although these instinct-reactions can spawn extraordinary and even famous professional accomplishments — in sport competitions or emergency situations for instance — personally it can result in alienation and loneliness for these people-lovers." ...

http://personal.ansir.com/gw.cgi?name=briefs&type=emote&style=9

Free report for: nicholas tan wei quan

Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self -- always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.

Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is. The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things.

Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness. Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds.

Idealists are rare, making up between 20 and 25 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.

The Four types of Idealists are:

Healers (INFP) | Counselors (INFJ) | Champions (ENFP) | Teachers (ENFJ)

http://www.advisorteam.com/temperament_sorter/register.asp

felt a little betrayed todae. And i hate the idea of pple betraying mi, especially mi trust. I can't believe tt i'm so nice to pple and open up, and yet they would do this kinda stupid things to hurt mi. I can't believe them man...luckily, mi suspicions are not confirmed, or else...i also dunnoe wad i'll do lar...Well, i can juz hope tt i'm wrong because i want to continue sharing mi life wif various pple and i dun wanna disrupt it juz because of 1 stupid fool.
Went for the dentl todae and the dentist tightened mi bands so much that i wanna juz cry out loud man!! mi goodness...it's a tightness tt i've nv ever experienced in mi jaws before and it's giving mi a throbbing headache!! I dun hafta eat to feel the excruciating pain i juz needa breathe in through mi mouth...tt's the extent of the pain i feel...Can imagine mi teeth and gums crying out loud man...
Got back some results todae and i felt quite disappointed in math. i only got a 30/100 for math which was a dumb F. And well, it was quite disappointing to see miself make so many careless mistakes and this time, i tynk i relly am the lowest in class for maths. I hate being th lowest in class. Got slightly better for comprehension, got a 28/50 for it...well it's something like a consolation tt's all...din relly felt tt it's well done at all...
Oh well, i gotta cut off the tail tt i kept too. Although i dun see anything wrong wif keeping mi hair tt way, since it's just a way of expressing miself, but apparently it goes against the sch rules. So, juz cut lar, wun relly hurt mi. Ah tail!! I'll miss u!!!
well, tynk tt's all for todae...argh pain...

felt a little betrayed todae. And i hate the idea of pple betraying mi, especially mi trust. I can't believe tt i'm so nice to pple and open up, and yet they would do this kinda stupid things to hurt mi. I can't believe them man...luckily, mi suspicions are not confirmed, or else...i also dunnoe wad i'll do lar...Well, i can juz hope tt i'm wrong because i want to continue sharing mi life wif various pple and i dun wanna disrupt it juz because of 1 stupid fool.
Went for the dentl todae and the dentist tightened mi bands so much that i wanna juz cry out loud man!! mi goodness...it's a tightness tt i've nv ever experienced in mi jaws before and it's giving mi a throbbing headache!! I dun hafta eat to feel the excruciating pain i juz needa breathe in through mi mouth...tt's the extent of the pain i feel...Can imagine mi teeth and gums crying out loud man...
Got back some results todae and i felt quite disappointed in math. i only got a 30/100 for math which was a dumb F. And well, it was quite disappointing to see miself make so many careless mistakes and this time, i tynk i relly am the lowest in class for maths. I hate being th lowest in class. Got slightly better for comprehension, got a 28/50 for it...well it's something like a consolation tt's all...din relly felt tt it's well done at all...
Oh well, i gotta cut off the tail tt i kept too. Although i dun see anything wrong wif keeping mi hair tt way, since it's just a way of expressing miself, but apparently it goes against the sch rules. So, juz cut lar, wun relly hurt mi. Ah tail!! I'll miss u!!!
well, tynk tt's all for todae...argh pain...

feel a little betrayed at the moment, however i'm not gonna go find out more about the matter in case i am able to confirm the betrayal of trust i haf in a fren. I'd rather pretend that coincidence was involved. But i can't help feeling sad whenever i tynk of the high probability that this has occured. Wonder if i am stupid to open miself too much to so many pple, even to pple tt i'm not familiar to. Hope i am not.
Went for mi dental appointment now and i teeth is feeling extra extra tight now, so tight that it's giving mi a throbbing feeling in mi head. Especially in mi upper jaw, where the dentist is trying to close the gap that mi front tooth left...extremely tight and painful...i dun haf to eat to give miself excruciating pain, i juz need to take in a deep breath from mi mouth...argh!!!
Updates for mi lousy results are as such...
Lousy maths: 30/100
but i'm not worried lar, because i made a lot of stupid mistakes and the stupid marking scheme is so rigid tt i can't believe it. nvm...
Lousy comprehension: 28/100
well at least i passed but wad's the point of passing i gotta support the dumb F tt i got for maths man...
argh!!!!! and wad's more i gotta cut mi beautiful tail. Although i see no wrong in keeping a tail but it does conflict wif the sch rules and so, it's only right that i cut it...but well...i'll miss it...argh!!!

Wackiness: 44/100
Rationality: 28/100
Constructiveness: 40/100
Leadership: 70/100


You are an SEDL--Sober Emotional Destructive Leader. This makes you a dictator. You prefer to control situations, and lack of control makes you physically sick. You feel have responsibility for everyone's welfare, and that you will be blamed when things go wrong. Things do go wrong, and you take it harder than you should.

You rely on the validation and support of others, but you have a secret distrust for people and distaste for their habits and weaknesses that make you keep your distance from them. This makes you very difficult to be with romantically. Still, a level-headed peacemaker can keep you balanced.

Despite your fierce temper and general hot-bloodedness, you have a soft spot for animals and a surprising passion for the arts. Sometimes you would almost rather live by your wits in the wilderness somewhere, if you could bring your books and your sketchbook.

You also have a strange, undeniable sexiness to you. You may go insane.

Try the test!!
http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp?quiz=Better+Personality&page=1

I tynk that the analysis is quite true lar...i do enjoy being a dictator...muahaha...but well of course this isn't good lar.Coz this means tt i'm less tolerant wif pple...Imagine Saddam Hussein...now imagine mi like Saddam Hussein! scary...
Played soccer wif mi church frens as usual on sunday and i must say it's great...juz being on the field again, juz playing for the love of the game. Shiok!
A nice movie is coming along...Brotherhood!can't wait to catch it, seems like one of those tearjerkers though, hope i wun cry...haha

haha juz wanna copy shiwen's little opening sentence in one of her previous blog entries...
You are so damn clueless!!!
For one i dun understand how come this sentence from shiwen can often send mi into spasms of laughter, probably because i knoe hu she was directing tt statement too...but well now i juz wanna say this too...
You are so damn clueless...if only u knew man...too bad i dun tynk u do...but mayb u do...haha
Btw...this is of course not dedicated to shiwen lar...shiwen dun get too happy kk?? =pp

hmmm...i wanna go backpacking to europe after mi ns which is about 3 years later!!! haha so excited already decided to go to germany france britain portugal spain switzerland and of course italy!!! Milan is a must go man, the fashion city!! haha wanna go see the Duomo cathedral...apparently the 3rd largest cathedral in the world!!
so excited man!! i better start planning now!!
and haha talked about a pact yesterday...exciting...yet sad..haha but well...it's a severe test..haha so well i'm looking forward to it!! now must juz spend more quality time...in case...
haha so tt's all! haha

went for a class outing after ct todae to watch spiderman 2!! man it was a superb show...i love the computer graphics...i mean seeing him swing from place to place relly gets mi envious...how cool issit to experience tt man...hai...
and his internal conflicts and emotions...relly...veh touching...
oh well...i feel like going to ice skate...i wanna go lar...long time nv go liao...