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Monday, April 17, 2006

It's been a good weekend i must say. On fri, i played badminton wif the usual gang comprising of weize, shiwei, serhwee, weize's little bro bryan, and weize's fren teck sng. Overall it was a rather good game except for the minor glitches before the game about the venue and the no. of people tt turned up. Basically, as usual, i was quite rash in mi decision making process and had a minor argument wif weize due to miscommunication but i'm glad tt we managed to iron things out pretty smoothly at the end and of course no grudges bore after the whole thing.

I found it a healthy argument because for the few rare times in mi life, i actually swallowed mi over-swelling pride to talk to weize and try to solve the problem, and i even apologised and bore the larger part of the blame. It's good though, every argument, every conversation wif people is always a learning journey for mi which i believe is the lesson that God wants mi to take home. To all mi frens out there, pls try to put mi in place gently and kindly if i overstep the border at times and am abit too much to handle ok?

On sat, i was extremely bored but eventually i plucked mi fat butt off mi computer seat and made mi way to simlim square ALONE. It was a gd trip because basically i was able to do things at mi own pace and need not have to bother about whether the other person is bored or wad. Bascially, juz do the things i want la. Browsed a few IT stuff and set mi sight on building a wireless network at home, hopefully at a more budgeted price than the 1 i estimated, and a new 17 inch lcd monitor from philips tt cost like 419 bucks. Zixu if u're seeing this come back soon k? Hope to go wif u to simlim when u're back!

Had carrot cake at the famous rochor market and practically had to queue up for 20min for a plate of $2 carrot cake but it was all worth it because the portion was so huge tt i could barely finish it and not to mention tasty too! Cheap, tasty and large quantity are the main things i look out for in food! Din really regret queueing because after i got mi food, the queue grew even longer. Hmmm, a testament to how famous tt store was, people could come and buy like 6 packets at 1 short. Yup. tt's y the queue was so insanely long tt it barely even moved.

After that i wanted to have a look at some guitars at bras basah complex and so happened to pass by the national library. I must say tt i couldn't resist the temptation to explore the national library, again ALONE. The trip to every level via the elevator really quench mi curiosity and the view was simply, wonderful. There's a nice study corner and a nice garden. Perfect dating ground man. Saw some people practising qi gong there too! Quite a beautiful building.

Bras basah complex was nicer in its outlook due to renovation and there are still many bookstores open, selling 2nd hand textbooks, guildebooks, etc. It's quite a steal considering the prices of most textbooks nowadays. The guitar i bought cost $64 and the bad cost $20 i tynk. Guitar was classical one after recommendation from the man for beginners like mi.

After purchasing the guitar, i walked to esplanade, enjoying the night view of the city to meet agnes, who was like mi rather alone. We met at the top of esplanade, and proceeded to talk for more than 2 hours. Oh and before she came, a group of malays beside mi actually boldly asked mi to lend them mi guitar and i was only too glad to lend it to them. So throughout the entire duration of our time there, we had some nice music, and so i've nv regretted mi action although this would mean i was not to be the first person to play it. But whoever cares bout such nonsense!

Which reminds mi of the time in ocs when a fellow cadet accidentally unsheathed the sword that belonged to another cadet and the guy hus sword was unsheathed by another was utterly pissed because he believed tt he shld be the first to unsheath it. Ok out of point but i feel tt it's like super minor matter but i believe everyone has their own views.

The conversation as i said varied from religion, to girls and guys in general, to different education system, to alotalot lar. Throughout the years tt i've known her, this was the first time i've actually talked to her for so long. In the past, i always count miself to be super insanely more mature that her given the age gap and character differences but i guess as we all grow up, age doesn't really seem to matter anymore when our mind becomes interllectually more active and our views are broaden from the experiences we have received in this world.

Ok i knoe i'm veh manly and handsome u all can stop staring at mi now and continue reading pls.

And so, i've began mi odyssey in conquering this beautiful instrument. I must admit that i was abit overconfident in mastering this instrument given mi chinese orchestra, zhongruan daruan and liuqin background. I underestimated the piece of solid wood. While the playing style is somewhat similar given the chords, it's a little bit harder because of the way i had to hold it. I alwys haf the tendency to want to hold it like mi chinese instrument man. Old habits die hard man. And the skin around mi fingers are starting to harden like before. Well, sometimes sacrifices have to be made to become the most eligible bachelor in singapore by age 25.

So far i've managed to figure out a little bit of the strumming pattern given the rhythm and gist of the main song. Quite accomplished. But i must not rest on mi laurels. I shall continue to learn this instrument miself and hopefully be able to lead worship 1 day! Though i still can't sing...next up i shld join some farni idol competition liao..mayb tt'll give mi the drive to attempt to improve mi lousy singing!

Cg has been good and well, the number of girls has swelled tremendously since the last time and the guys were really really outnumbered man. Happy that i'm back into this group of people tt i've not meet for most of last year and it's juz nice to talk about so many things wif them!















Ya...so any guys who wanna join mi juz kindly send mi a msg, i'd gladly introduce u to mi homely cell group man. We usually meet up on friday evenings at about 7.30pm. Oh u can tag mi too! Gers also can lar, we have many professionals there to help u if u haf any trouble man. Teachers form the main bulk though we have a tax accountant, an architect, some students, and of course the most important factor is the genius lar.

Recently, i've been reading alot about the dialogue that some jounalists had wif MM Lee and there has been many articles published in the forum regarding this issue. Somehow, i juz felt that the attitude of some young pple in S'pore are not quite correct. While i'm impressed wif the journalists direct questions to this man, i juz felt that the tone was abit disrespectful. Of course there are worse attitudes which are political apathy, that is people not caring for the health and governance of our nation too. How many youths todae actually take notice of the difference in lifestyle led by us, and other countries around the world?

Many argue that in singapore, we do not have true democracy, that our government is a little bit of strict, wif respect to liberal strikes and the right to protest for things that do not go the people's way; afterall democracy is about people's power rite? But wad i read todae in the forum reinforced mi view on this. Would we trade our robust economy, strong governance, and fair judicial system for the sake of more political freedom? Look at france, young working adults as well as students go on strikes and refused to work or attend sch when the prime minister attempted to change a law in labour which is to simplify the process in which employers terminate the services of young employees shld their work attitude not be good.

In taiwan where true democracy prevails, MPs throw chairs and slap each other when they disagree wif one another in parliament. National disgrace. In hongkong, the media is given freeplay. Look at their paparrazzis! They are everywhere, getting the latest gossip, or sometimes making their own gossips! Would u like paparrazzis in singapore? Of course there are many other examples which i shan't mention here. And interestingly, their country is not really stable economically, politically and socially. Having a government is equivalent to having no power. The people have the last say! If that's the case, y haf a government in the first place?

Of course, i really wonder wad FREEDOM do our people want really. Freedom to say whatever they want? That would result in lots of slandering and soon nobody could tell fiction from fact. For example in Dr Chee's case, he accused the government of giving $17 billion dollars to Indonesia, without subsantiate evidence. Freedom of speech comes at a price. Which is y the government has introduced something new; freedom of speech with RESPONSIBILITY. And people are still complaining!! Which i do not really understand y.

So wad other freedom do we truly desire? Right now wif our bustling economy, many people have jobs and we haf the freedom to spend. We are as individuals, economically more well to do than many other nations in the world, and many more who have total democracy. Seriously, are we pushing the boundary too far?

Of course, i do not condone these people because i believe that with such a response, it can only be good for the political climate in our country where more young people are encouraged to speak up about wad they feel. But we must not forget the path our country has taken to prosperity and must never take it for granted. While not many out there would have the same opinion as mi, i still feel that we ought to have respect for our government and to our MM Lee who has done alot for our country.

Afterall politics is really not just about elections, but it's about whether we have jobs, whether we have a home to slp every night, whether our kids would receive top-rated education, and whether there's a future for all of us in our beautiful country.

Friday, April 07, 2006

Hello everyone! Film update! I'm juz completed watching brotherhood, ocean's 11 and i do i do. Brotherhood is the typical war show wif some form of blood and gory and so not advisable for the faint-hearted. But that show made mi once again experience the realities of war. The fatality rate especially. The artillery is really the king of the battlefield man. A few boom boom boom and many pple will juz perish. Of course the real time action of flying bullets are worse. The rate of getting hit by any stray bullets is like damn scary.

During training, we always aim when we shoot, but in the vcd, they juz fire blindly most of the time and although the no. of bullets to kill a man increases, but it's more effective amidst the chaos. War is really damn scary. It destroys families. But the kinship and feelings, brotherhood and love, although destroyed in the physical form, but continues to linger in the hearts of those still living. And of course war drives pple to insanity too. Juz look at the main lead actor hu actually defected to north korea and became crazy after his wife and brother were supposedly murdered by people from his own camp.

Ok it made mi drop a few tears. Not bad. Ocean's 11 is juz a typical hollywood show so i shan't comment. Ok I do i do, the movie by jack neo. I must say i wasn't watching it wif high expectations. Probably it's a different genre of film tt i'd nv watch in the theatre. It's pretty light and quite refreshing wif the occasional use of hokkien and it's really quite farni lar. I could hear miself chuckling throughout the entire show and at the end i was also a little bit touched lar. ok tt's all.

Actually i forgot the main bulk of wad i wanted to say. sigh nvm.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Recently there has really been quite a no. of stuff bothering mi and most of them are rather unpleasant. Mi sister's fren had a little problem and came to look for mi sister for help. However this 'little' problem ain't tt little at all. In fact, it's still bothering mi up till now. Now, this fren of hers needed to borrow a little bit of money. Now this little bit of money aint so little too. It's juz a sum of $3000. She needed the money to bail someone out of prison apparently. The reason she gave was to mi, abit nonsensical and unbelievable.

However, this 1 person tt she needed to bail out was her father and of course if i were to imagine mi father in prison, i'd also be desperate. So she's crying and telling mi this really incredible story about how her father landed up in jail. To mi, 3k is a rather significant sum and to juz land it to someone hu told mi an incredible story is really absolutely no go. Besides, since i feel tt she's telling mi a lie about the reason y her father is in jail, i can't help but wonder wad the real reason is.

Anyone hus close ones are in prison would surely be desperate to get them out and to mi, desperate pple will do anything..including lying. I mean, wad would happen if her father is bankrupt, or corrupt, or mayb even a drug abuser? Sometimes i might be too critical and cynical of people but i juz can't help it. The world is rather selfish and i believe most people will do things for their own benefit.

Mi sister though is a more trusting and worthy fren than i am and she'd do anything for her frens. In her eyes, i'm juz a selfish bastard hu has the money and the means to help her fren but dun wanna help. Well, hopefully one day she'll understand mi decision. So she started using her vast contacts and network of frens to try to raise the amount of money for her fren. Of course i tried to dissuade her because i always imagine the worse case scenario. If her fren's father jumped bail, the amount of money they raised would be forfeited and worse of all, all of mi sister's frens parents hu contributed money to the fund will start pointing their fingers at mi. At such a young age, to hold such a responsibility as a guarantor is really not easy man. So many details to iron out.

Anywae, i went to check up the prison service website and read up a bit on bailing procedures and learnt quite alot actually. Like how an accused person can be caught without a warrant and help up to 2 days and if they're not released unconditionally, they'd be charged. Since mi sister's fren's father has been in there for like 7 days liao, i deduce tt he must have been charged and therefore require bail. Next, to pay for the bail, cash is not necessarily needed. Ok here's the info i copied from the website.

When Police bail is offered, the person arrested can contact a bailor. The bailor must be either a Singapore citizen or permanent resident, and more than 21 years old.
The bailor will have to satisfy the Police that he is suitable to provide bail. A bailor may show his ability to stand bail by depositing cash, or producing fixed deposit certificates, bank passbooks, car log books, title deeds to a property, share certificates or other valuables. A bailor should also bring along his NRIC as proof of identity.
If the amount of bail exceeds $10,000, a company or a business may stand as bailor. The company's stamp will be needed. The authorised signatory of the company will have to sign the documents.


Ok now comes the part tt i'm irritated wif. I'm bothered by the kind of emotional torture this issue has brought mi. In mi mind, i can't stop playing the vivid images of having mi own family members in prison, lonely. And of course i still feel a pang of guilt for not helping to like bail her father out. The sight of her crying in desperation is still etched in mi mind and it's torturing mi whenever i'm not doing anything tt can keep mi mind off. This is the consequence of being mature. Not bragging here. The grave consequences.

And of course life is always full of regrets. Some big, some small depending on the context and of course depending on the types of choices we make. We cannot see the future, yet we're always required to make sensible choices. I've a few regrets in mi life and the one tt i'm gonna talk about is the biggest if not most serious regret i have in mi life. Y issit the most serious? Because it has nothing to do wif mi. All i made was mayb 1 wrong choice, and that person might not have a more fulfilled life than designated.

I've always believed in mi choices and decisions. But to cause someone's life to screw up is really really bad. Right now, i can't really see tt person's future and i juz really really hope tt she'll be able to do well and strive to achieve the best in her life. Y do i feel tt bad? You see, if i made a wrong choice for miself, of course i'd still regret but i can tell miself tt i chose tt path miself and i can blame no one. But to make a wrong choice for another person, she'd regret she did not stand up more for her decision, and will be left to wonder wad her future will be like.

Standing in mi shoes, i can understand how parents feel. From young, they've been our mentor, guardian, parent, teacher, role model etcetc. And they'd need to constantly make decisions. Should they send us for piano courses? For art courses? For sports courses? Each one of which would have a deep impact on us. How much time to spend wif us revising? Work or spending time wif child? Parents have to continuously juggle both the role of a worker in the office, the parents to their children and the spouse to each other. Each one demands time from them. And a lack of time spent wif children will sometimes lead to delinquency in kids.

Ok i tynk i'm talking nonsense liao but i juz feel that our parents would constantly feel haunted by the choices they made for us. Because these choices very much often help to determine our destiny.

OKOK i give up..i'm really not making sense anymore. I juz hope i'll be able to forgive miself of the wrong choice i made. So people, tynk twice whenever u make choices and decisions for pple. It could change their entire destiny. Oh ya and remember to treasure ur parents to. Filial Piety is the most important trait one shld have. Otherwise no matter how successful you are or will be, to mi u're juz garbage. So go and love your parents and spend more time wif them. Dun wait till it's too late.

Monday, April 03, 2006

hmmm...juz realised tt i'm really quite a petty guy and i will seldom voice out how i feel and this will result in mi being more fed-up and angry. Tell-tale signs are easy for pple hu knoe mi. Anywae, i must say tt i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really............

Can't take criticism at all. Especially sharp criticism. It juz frustrates mi at times and i can't get it off mi chest.....................................................................
Stop criticising mi!!! I wun bother u anymore!!!
I'm a petty boy
I juz reached home from 2 hours of badminton though effective playing time is only about 1 hour..But still, the intensity plus the nil stretching before tt is giving mi aches now...from mi feet to mi calf to mi thighs to mi nice butt everywhere is juz aching man...feels damn comfy to juz lie down on the bed and laze mi night away but no! I've got far more important things to do man. I was alittle late due to the rain but nevertheless juz in time for a little bit of buddy action from weize and shiwei. Lots of laughter and i'm juz not able to concentrate and play to mi ability lar.

In fact, i played quite lousily. Weize's little bro hu is like half mi height came soon and i must say tt he's really really really good for his age man. His drop shots are really really scary and DO NOT, i say again DO NOT underestimate him because he will punish u man. He did punish mi initially wif his smashes and precise shots but i got more and more used to it as i played longer.

Serhwee jh hand weeboon came soon after and we began to play. A pity we had to stop juz when we were juz about warmed up because our time was up. I was glad tt i got a bit of old self back but hopefully, i'll improve more as i start to play wif them week in week out.

Ok, gonna watch brotherhood soon, mi father cried and cried when he watch tt show so i guess, it'll make mi tear a little also. Dunno wad's up wif mi nowadays, crying and tearing for minor reasons. I tynk the tears have stored up there for a long time and really really long a release man...hahaha

byebye have fun

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Juz now i caught campus superstar and i'm really shocked that the contestants are really really really young man. And they have pretty good voices too! A pity theresa din manage to perform her best and the guy managed to bring his performance to a higher level. Out of about 2000 contestants, only 1 is crowned the superstar. Such competition can only force them to improve every week. And those that fail to improve will not be able to get the audience's and judges' vote of support. All the months of hard work man, they've truly gone thru a long journey..

All these only made mi tynk bout the 9 months in ocs that i've walked thru. I've to admit that i've really learnt alot of things from mi stint there. I knew where mi limits lie, and how i performed under tremendous pressure too. I learnt to work wif many different people whose character are world's apart from mine. And of course i made many great frens wif whom i still go out to play dota wif on sat nites every fortnightly.

Actually while watching such shows like american idol 5 or campus superstar, i always never fail to tear a little bit during the elimination phase or the results phase. I can somehow identify wif them because during mi passing out parade in ocs, i've experienced this sudden surge in emotions, when i start to watch mi entire ocs life play right before mi eyes. If only ocs has such elimination system too, where every week, some cadets will go out of course until about half the no. is left. Mayb then will true leaders be bred out of this cruel and unfeeling method.

To all mi frens in uni studying, gd luck to u. study hard and have fun man...