Blog blog blog! haha rather interesting and tiring week.

First up, farewell to benjamin. It was really a great session and first time i finished all the food during a bbq and first time a bbq lasted about 1.5hours?? Quite funny tynking about it. We ordered food from a bbq caterer which means that we get to save up on preparation time and on hindsight, i tynk it was a great decision because everyone had no time! Of course the reason why such events are fun is because of the people!

Well, apparently he had a 'mum' and a 'dad' courtesy of eunice and ying ting, and they were well, extremely 'loving' and 'caring' and just great! They insisted that I be their new 'son' since their old son is going. But how can a genius like me be their son?! Crazy man...in the end, oblidged a little and took a photo with all of them, but doesn't mean i'm part of your family. And who can forget tony the WOLF, as in colour wolf, se4 lang2 and all the wolf jokes we cracked like wolf in pig's clothing etc...hahaha ok lar fun fun time and then a few of us went to catch the fireworks.

Not really in my intended plan for the day but well, i din wanna spoil people's moods to watch the fireworks. I was caught in the jam like forever both b4 and after the fireworks and was abit impatient and felt bad. Because i had another appointment with my friend and i could only meet her extremely late, while she has to wake up early the next day and i felt extremely bad and guilty...sigh...But the fireworks were great and really all kinds of patterns that i never ever could imagine.

Throughout the journey i felt really bad to bangseh my friend and in the end, she chose to go home. Well, i felt guilty the whole night. haha, and even when dancing salsa in the club, i still felt guilty. It's long since i really pissed off people man...

Anyhow, on sunday, we celebrated zixu's birthday and that stupid bum better be appreciative. After scouring almost all the places in orchard for something suitable for like 3 hours, we finally managed to find a cool t-shirt for him and really, hope he likes it man. 3 Hours of madness really! We ate at the Rice table, and as usual binh the pig came late. So the 4 of us, jas me zixu and binh ate at this indonesian buffet restaurant until we almost died. The food was great to me, but i guess some of them felt it was too spicy.

We had insanely lots of laugh and binh said something really hilarious that made me laugh uncontrollably. It's been months, probably years since i managed to laugh so heartedly man...We're just talking about her plans to teach her professor vietnamese and i guess me and zixu just had the exact sentiments and was tynking along the same line...And that kinda set the tone for everything else. Binh started saying that her friend also 'torched' the professor before when she accidentally combined 'teach' and 'taught' and really, hahahahaha just tynking about it now with the wierd setting and tone and everything else is just making me shake uncontrollably...hahahaha

After dinner, we went to Mccafe at shaw and started to plan our overseas trip. We finally managed to decide on Australia, but i kinda still sense the hesitance and reluctance of the girls to actually commit the time and money for this. I guess, it's really difficult once you start your university education because you have so little time with yourself what with all that attachments and internships etc...

Well, we'll see what happens la ok zixu? I tynk a budget of about 2k would be just nice for a 2-3 week stay in australia. We'll see about ur uni application and the girl's availability of time and cash ok? Otherwise...ya...must plan early lar, or else we'll not be able to make full use of our stay there.

Finally, the highlight of the entry is today. I actually almost blacked out, or fainted for the simple-minded. I brought my sister to the GP to remove her in-grown toenail. Well, finally! It's been bothering her for weeks and finally finally finally decided to see a GP. The doc was nice, offered her 2 solutions, 1) remove the toenail surgically right away 2) be placed on antibiotics and see if the swelling goes away, and the toenail can be cut.

After eternity, my sister chose 1, with tears glistening in her eyes though. Well, i tynk i understand the fear and trauma of having to go 'under the knife'. She's afraid of pain, of injections, of the scapel, of the doctor, of everything lar! The needle haven't even gone in already started crying like crazy, i mean wailing like crazy. And as the doctor was testing whether her entire leg has gone numb, i started to feel a little giddy and flashes of darkness started to surround me.

According to my experience, i knew i was feeling faint, and that i was probably going to faint too. But i really did not want to leave my sister, so i just tried to lean on the wall, close my eyes and take a few deep breaths. But it just got worse and worse and the doctor noticed me, and asked me if i felt faint, and proceeded to lead me out of the room after i replied yes. I stumbled my way out of the room, because i really had difficulty seeing anything with all the flashes of darkness shrouding my vision and i just plonked myself on the chair outside.

I closed my eyes, and tried to keep my head straight but i had no strength to even lift my head and it was just slumped behind. My limbs were without strength and i couldn't open my eyes. I tried taking deep breaths, but felt my chest tightening and could hardly breathe properly. Before long, i began to perspire profusely and all the while, i was conscious and i could feel wad was happening to me and i was trying to fight the darkness.

It's really scary, the way the darkness just totally shrouded my vision and enveloped my entire being. Eventually, managed to ease out of that phase and called my parents to come pick me and my sister up. Even though i drove my sister to the doc's, i doubt it'd be wise for me to drive her home after my almost fainting spell. No point to endanger our lives and the lives of others should i really faint in the car while driving.

Anyway, it was only after i regain full consciousness that i began to feel quite worried because i was going to be a dentist. Luckily, the nurse asked me if i had my dinner and it was only then did i realised that it has been many hours since i last consumed anything and yea did not feel so worried anymore! Afterall, i've witnessed countless extractions and injections and today was the first time i almost passed out. It's a blessing i did not pass out because i know that fainting could result in brain damage, thank God man...

Anywae still feeling abit giddy now so gotta sleep already...gdnite all!

Human beings are really 1 kind. We really tynk that we understand each other so well, as family, as friends, that we will always judge one another. Of course i'm not excused from this behavior as well because i like the rest have fallen. We always tynk we are right, others are wrong. And the best thing is we always believe that we can read each other intentions and character and personality so well!

It's really so easy to tell someone that 'You're selfish!'. Or 'You're petty', without actually realising that each time we utter such words, we're piercing a knife through their hearts. But we still always do that, sadly. Especially when we really want things our way and if that scenario doesn't happen, we tend to blurt out all these words.

It's so funny. I tell u it's really so hard to maintain a family. When you have 5 people living under 1 roof that has different kind of lives, it just gets so exciting. You never know when the next conflict would come because it is always lurking around in the corner. You see, in a family where everyone refuses to give way, what you have isn't really a family anymore is it?

Of course i stand by the opinion that everyone has a different way of life and of course each way of life and character has been forged and moulded by the different circumstances and the different surroundings and experiences. So what is the unifying thing in the family then? The surname? A house to come home to, which has become a hotel for some?

Ok, let's examine a few typical characters in the family. The father. The one who more often than not is the breadwinner in the family. Constantly worries about finances to send his children to school and of course would want the best for his wife and for his children. Comes home daily hoping to enjoy a good meal with the family after a hard day's work.

The mother. A person who always wishes to have the best for the family, sometimes even making sacrifices like not going out in order to cook and spend time with the family. Is also a strict disciplinarian. Juggles 3 things; work, studies and housework. Worries alot about the children in the family especially when they come home late.

The eldest son. Someone who holds the role as peacemaker in the family although sometimes can be the troublemaker. He has to be the mediator at times and has the responsibility of looking after his sisters and making sure that they are doing well, as well as to make sure that his parents are fine too.

The 1st sister. An extremely outgoing person who never fails to come home late every night. Is talented in almost all sports and is a great social butterfly. At times when she comes home a bit earlier than usual, she will offer to do some housework.

The 2nd sister. A girl who has strong individualistic values and believes firmly in her character. Independence brought about by the long hours spent at home when her elder siblings are in secondary school while she in primary school. Reads widely and is yet to fulfil her maximum potential.

Wow! Picture of a perfect family! Unbelievable! But no. It's far from perfect. Misunderstandings, irritation, transgressions, hurts, vulgarities, shoutings, screamings are all so common. It can happen anyday, anytime, anywhere. Whether 1am, or 2pm anytime, anywhere. Overseas, at home, in shopping centres, just absurd right?

A typical family that do not know how to translate their care and concerns for each other into positive words and actions. Everything is negative. Everything is bad.

Parents do not understand their children and vice versa. For children who can take all this misunderstanding and judging of their characters, they will grow up to be very strong individuals. For those who cannot take it, very often they would turn to their peers. For the worst case, they would even turn to crime, gangs etcetc and the gap between the parents and the children will just be there for a long long time.

In the world that has fallen, everyone has fallen too. Our actions, thoughts and words all make tt up. But God knows. He knows right from wrong. He knows love from hatred. The only thing that can unite people's hearts is through Christ. The epitome of love.

Sigh...today i witnessed my $100 and my silver for ippt fly away in front of my eyes!! Argh!! How can that be?! How can the super duper fit genius like me can't even get a silver for a stupid ippt?! It's all because of the STANDING BROAD JUMP. I tell u, i absolutely hate the standing broad jump. Since the day i started doing this dumb jump, i've been always living on the fringe and it was only after many many many days of hard training did i manage to jump a gold score.

And today, sadly, after being inactive for close to 4 months, my sbj has been my demise again...I jumped 221cm, short of 4cm to get old and as ben said, each cm is worth $25 man...haha ok lar basically, i did well for each section except sbj and after tt, i just got no motivation to run anymore. Anyhow, still managed a comfortable 10min timing..hmmm the question now is..shld i train my standing broad jump and aim for the gold? And it's worth $200 man...