enoughsaid

Friday, April 27, 2007

I was on the road to recovery when suddenly i was hit with a bout of weakness yesterday. It came when i woke up in the morning, i could feel a super duper painful headache that i'd not felt in years. It's those where when i make a sudden movement, a side of my head would throb and i would have to close my eyes to absorb that pain.

What's worse, my whole body felt weak and as the day wore on, it's apparent that i was feeling weaker and weaker. My body seemed to have developed a new found extreme sensitivity to movement and every movement i make will cause all my muscles to tingle inside. And not to mention my bones and my joints, aching...

Very soon, fever started to set in and by that time i was so weak that i was reduced to lying on my bed. But i couldn't sleep because i've been drinking so much water that i've to visit the loo every 15min. I suspected either dengue or flu, becuase most of the symptoms matched these 2. For dengue the symptoms that havne't appear was the rashes and for flu, it was the runny nose, sore throat, phlegm etc.

Anyway i was quite worried that it'd be dengue because on tuesday, i remember being bitten by a mosquito and the timing of the onset of symptoms matched those that i'd researched. A visit to the doctor that night led to no conclusions and all he gave me was paracetamol to control the fever and pain, and told me that if i still have fever on monday, i would have to go back to the clinic and take a blood test to see if it's dengue, since it was too early to take a blood test then.

And of course this morning, i felt very much better, maybe under the influence of paracetamol, but much to my dismay, when i woke up, there was a slight rash near my tummy which for some strange reason hasn't disappeared even though i'd taken extra precautions not to scratch it. Anyway, i've decided to battle whatever i'm going to face and i'm gonna down many many cups of fluids and water everyday man.

Oh, and the joint pain is really no joke. I really can understand the pain that old people go through now. The pain is really so incredible that i cannot describe it, except that it feels like somebody has somehow managed to use a hammer to hit my bones directly. It's a pain that comes from the inside out and it feels very sharp, it's like eating ice cream with sensitive teeth. And it lasted for about 30 seconds and left me gasping in shock and in pain.

Wow..it's a new experience and pain man. I wonder how people with cancer feel. Surely their agony is 10 or maybe 100 times worse, given the radiotherapy they have to go through and the abnormal swelling of the tumors. Wow...such pain, i didn't know could ever exist.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

post op...

Wow...finally had the energy to come here and blog about my operation. My goodness, was in pretty bad shape yesterday man. Operation was supposed to start at about 12+, but in the end because there was 2 more patients in front of me so, i had to wait till 2+ before i was called into the room.



The anaethetist was there, talking to me asking me what i was going to study etc, and all the while, she was injecting local anesthetic into my left wrist, so that she can put a needle sorta thing there, which was later used to supply the General Anaestetic. Awhile after inserting the needle thing, they put on a gas mask and asked me to breathe deeply and suddenly the anaethetist said that she was going to put me to sleep then.



Trust me i was so excited, and all the while i can feel some liquid being poured into my left hand via the needle in my wrist...



There was a sort of heaviness in my head and i continued takin in the deep breaths and i was fighting and fighting.

I don't wanna close my eyes...


Take a deep breath...now tt's good...



I wanna say something *tries to open mouth*



Another deep breath now..



*My eyes are shutting* Ouch my head so hurts, stop fighting...my head is exploding in pain and i wanna say something!!! *my eyes shut* but i can still hear the voices around me..

1 more deep breath now....that's the way, just one more deep breath...



Lost consciousness...





When i woke up, i was already lying back on my bed, in the recovery room and my eyes are squinting, slowly taking in the surroundings and there was a nurse talking to me. A while later, the surgeon came and told me about my medication...and i can listen but can't really respond. I kept opening and closing...so tired...



And there i lay for awhile before being wheeled out. And i lay there for about 2 hours, with the duty dentist trying to suppress the bleeding for me. They gave me ribena...but i was still bleeding..

At about 7pm, i was given the all clear to go home, mym mum drove me home and i was being to feel more alert, but still was bleeding...

Lay down on the couch, for about 3 hours, thinking about my birthday party. Can't sleep, spent too much time resting that day.

Took my medicine, but forced to lie down on the couch, cannot move anywhere on my own...soon it's 24 hours since my last meal...

Woke up at about 3am, to change the gauze that i was biting on...wet with blood...and i was still awake...and zixu tt bum had to sms me at 4.50am...

In the morning...i was still bleeding...but heck, took out the gauze and decided not to bite it anymore. Read harry potter for 7 hours straight...and now it's night...close to 44 hours since i had my last meal...

And my face was so swollen i can't believe it...i can't even open my mouth properly, or talk properly...pathetic...



Sunday, April 22, 2007

parties and operation

Finally, the eve of my operation. Currently i'm 15min away from my "fast", and 12 hours away from my operation. It'll be a good 2 hours plus nap from the General Anaesthetic. So friends, if i do not reply to your well-meaning sms-es, do forgive me ok? I might be too groggy or in too much pain.

Alright, enough about the crazy op. Here's the pictures from the 2 parties i attended recently. Zhenjie's "obiang" themed party
Class photo
Melisa and I...I'm the obiang king!
Melisa's sch uniform party
Melisa(red tie) with class
Jas zixu weeboon and i...haha quite unglam for zixu
Melisa with class and cake..
Jas me and zixu...