this birthday, I did more reflections and introspections than wad i usually did in a few weeks, maybe even months.

The thoughts just can't stop flowing in my mind.

My birthday wish is for world peace.....wah...joking lar i'll tell u all after i've thought about it.

It's like 1215am on the 29 june, the very day i was born 20 years ago. So far 7 messages have come in and i'm so thankful to these friends. This year i decided not to sms people to remind them because i wanted to see really, how many people really remembered...haha and to see how many really really cared bout mi.

Anywae, the most touching message so far came from tony my colleague at work. Quite a nice and encouraging speech!
And from my sister, she's the first to send me a birthday message!
And my mom gave me a book titled 'Lead like Jesus'. It's the best gift for this birthday. Although my mum has not come to know Christ yet, i hope one day she'll join me and my whole family will join me and we can spend time praying together at home!
And my mum's friend, she gave me a shirt from op! Wow...touched!! haha
Ok more updates soon...
Now it's 1220 and i have 9 wishes already...haha

Hmmm...something i saw in a card that's written for me for a special day..
Something that happened during an interview:

Interviewer: How come you don't have girlfriend?
Me: I don't know...
Interviewer: Issit coz u're bogay?
Me: I'm not gay!!

Ok this sorta brought up memories of that day which was quite interesting...many things happened this 2 weeks and really i'd like to share everything...but not now lar...

Now i'm juz focusing on the record...see? I din send out reminders this year...haha

Wow! It's really been a whirlwind weekend man! Andy, church friend of mine approached me on saturday, to replace him for the upcoming church camp this week. At that time, i was playing winning eleven at wayne's place and ya, for those who know me, when i'm playing game i really really don't like to be distracted. Furthermore, there is so little time for preparations! So after a little thought, i turned him down. I know i'm shallow lar haha...

So on sunday, i got reminded of the church camp, again and again and again through different ones. And every time i try to reject it, it got harder and harder and in the end, i decided to ask God to lead me. So happened that i met andy at the 1st floor and so enquired about the camp again. The more i asked, the more interested i became. But the administrative stuff i had to settle was still at the back of my mind. Plus the cost of it. But once again i decided to surrender to God lar. I told him that if he wants me to go then please make everything smooth.

And so, the arrangement of the buses was perfect. Andy was due to leave on monday for an additional day of leader's retreat, but well, i can only leave on tues. And the issue of taking so many days of overseas leave suddenly too. Thank God it was all approved by my superiors. And then i had to take half day leave today to extend my passport and it was also approved! And at the passport immigration centre, trust me man, there was close to 200 applicants in front of me! It was crazy man...And at the end of all the settling of administrative stuff, i just felt so happy. Luckily i decided not to worry bout anything and instead to just surrender everything.

It's something that i've always been struggling. Making my own decisions, worrying bout everything, but ya now i'll try to just surrender. Afterall, God's responsible for my life and anything and everything that has happened and will happen to me! Haha so happy now...hahaha

So well, church camp is tml, tues 7.30am to friday nite. See ya guys when i'm back.

Hey! Salsa was superb man. Juz came home not too long ago. It was tiring and yet fun at the same time. The steps are difficult!! I realised that i might have some psychomotor problems. It's always soooooo hard to coordinate the foot and the arms and yar to combine wif the girl is even more difficult! Well hope i will get ample practice this sat when i go to xen bar. Time for mi to go there and leave a blazing trail man!

Went to the botanic gardens on monday and i must say that it's been a good 6-7 years since i've stepped into that mosquito-infested place. The swans have multiplied and the lake is more beautiful now. Took a big walk round the whole park and eventually came back where we played wif the swan. I will never forget that most comical of comical moments when the swan raised his head and took a little bite...on a little foot...hahahaha hilarious man almost died laughing

Next up is the zoo! I hope i will find some 'friends of the zoo', then i can enter at a cheaper rate!!

Hi i'm back again! Juz returned frfrom salsa class and my whole body is aching and aching and aching man. Shoulders ache, legs ache, arms ache, neck ache, anywhere u mention i ache lar. But salsa was nonetheless fun. Revised on the techniques we learnt that day which was cross body lead, and the simple turn.

Today we learnt 2 more moves and of which 1 is extremely difficult man. The cross body turn! It's really really crazy and i tynk i really have little bits of psychomotor problems man. Can't really coordinate mi arms and legs well yet but wif practice due this sat, i will still fulfil my dream of blazing the dance floor!! Muahahaha...

Hi everyone! That day when i updated i forgot to write about my horrendous nightmare. It was really really really so bad that i actually cried in my sleep man.

In my dream....

I woke up and went to university! Strangely, i turned up in a tutorial class at NTU business school. I was shocked lar because i did not know wad i was doing there. The teacher just said take out your pen and paper and gave a test man. I was still so stunned by the whole situation that i kept asking my teacher wad i was doing there and she said that i was transfered there.

She told me that i was suddenly kicked out from dentistry and then i can't get into my second choice also. Since i had only 2 choices, they juz threw mi into a course which have vacancy and there i was in ntu business sch. I was so shocked and utterly disappointed and sad that i juz cried in front of my whole class man. Nevertheless i still took the test, although i do not know anything bout business and nv study anything and got super good grades man.

See even if i'm sad and crying, i'd still be a crying genius. Ok lar tt's all basically but when i woke up mi pillow is utterly wet lar and i dun tynk it's my saliva because my eyes were abit puffy and damp and all that...haha

Juz came back from Global Day of Prayer man! It's really a very great event where christians juz gather together to meet with God. It was held at the national stadium and i was one of the ushers. Felt extremely happy to juz greet people with a simple Hello! or a simple Welcome! and to be greeted back. Had a lot of fun tynking of ways to attract people's attention too! There was once i said Hi, welcome! then this group of about 5 guys and girls dao mi leh...so i was abit exasperated then i lamented to my fellow usher. And i tynk i'm quite loud when i'm exasperated...so well suddenly frrom behind i heard HELLO!!! and all of them waving back at mi...so embarrassing lar...haha

At the main event, i tynk the best part was seeing about 24+k people juz coming to worship and pray together man. Magnificent. It's juz like a mini ndp lar. With all the worship songs, i tynk the nearby blocks probably can hear us man. The most touching part came when the 2 wings of church denominations apologised to each other. Christians are mainly split into 2 categories; the conservatives and the charismatics. So they apologised for all the times they belittled each other and hurt each other and were not united. And they forgave each other, to form 1 united Church of Singapore!

Well, the event went well man but a pity city harvest and new creation did not join us.

I must learn to give thanks for the things i have. And be joyful in the Lord. That's the challenge for me now.

It's farni how i manage to keep up an energetic and cheerful facade for the last few days even when deep inside i was deeply troubled by so many things in m