i must admit tt i dun haf a say to make u all do wad we want or to make u all compromise to join us or wad...but tynk along this line..issit easier for 4 pple to meet or for 15 pple to meet wif 1 army guy hu has limited booking out days? Tt's the only reason y we were quite upset...i guess it's priorities once again..the next time we can see each other as almost a whole class again will be in late feb when we get back our results. Because when cheekeong bookout, then it'll be weeboon, zhenjie and sijie's turn to go in...and then...it'll be even harder to meet...hai..i'm speechless..wad can i say?

well..in the end, we had a mini class outing consisting of 6 guys and a ger..or rather 6 and a half guys and half a ger..since xinru openly said tt she's a bisexual..this was a last minute impromptu outing organised by mi and cheekeong and we juz decided to find a place to eat at the west since most of us stay around tt area except for poor zixu..

we went to eat the zhu2 cao3 at blue roof which i tot was not bad but i dunnoe how the others feel lar..haha but at least it was dinner..nice sitting there and talking and making fun of each other esp seng kiat hu 'offered' to pay for the drinks...hahaha

after tt we went to west mall aimlessly and along the way, we were talking bout shoes and i accidentally pronounced suede as sweat when the correct pronunciation was su-ade..and tt drove xinru into fits and she was juz squatting by the path laughing like a mad woman...at westmall, we juz settled in the kopitiam coz zixu was yearning for dianxin and in the end..we bought a few bowls of dessert to share..so we juz sat there for quite long juz talking and eating dessert and i was telling them some stories from taiwan..

well..on the way to the kopitiam..xinru was exclaiming how she managed to buy a veh cheap speedo swimsuit at $40 ringgit when it would cost bout S$80 in singapore..and zixu casually asked her y she nv buy some bikinis...and xinru tt thick skinned fella was like saying ' eh...y? u wanna see mi in it ar?? ' tt's like so ultra super duper thick skinned lar!! haha okok...it's juz pretty farni to mi..well, i rather enjoyed this outing even though we weren't relly doing things tt were happening like counting down or wad..but it's the company sometimes i guess..and xinru was damn sporting. She came down even though she knew she'd be the only ger..woohoo..relly relly veh admirable man!

Happy new year...
pull ur ear...=p

class outing? wad's the point when a minute microscopic portion of pple are there? hmmm...well, different pple haf different priorities and i shldn't force pple to compromise i guess. But still it's pissing and only to get a bloody reply at the bloody last minute.

Had an outing wif mi co clique tt day and haha it was real fun man..the day started out wif mi being late as usual for badminton at a community club near agnes' house and eexuan, aloy, george and agnes were there already...played badminton for awhile and because i geh2 kiang3 or act smart in hokkien and played barefoot, i actually slipped while using so much strength to smack tt i actually flew and landed on mi left knee and ribs and according to george, i also bounced on the floor before lying there motionless groaning in pain for like 2mins...

Real dumb of mi coz it made mi lose the chance to play wif mi nj soccer team frens the next day but i'll touch on tt later..following the badminton sessionhey haha this time playing barefoot was no problem because the texture of the tennis court was rather rough. And then we played pool and daidee. Well, limin suggested tt we played daidee wif some 'spice' by introducing forfeit so after a few rounds, all of them had to do push ups...hahaha and then...when it was mi turn to play...well...let's juz said tt we all had a *beeping* good time laughing at *beep* wahahahahaha...after tt we went for dinner and went home already...

ok pause here...i juz read zixu's blog on how mi jas and binh celebrated his bdae and i can't help it but tear a little..shit y am i feeling so emotional these few days. Anw..it juz brings back memories of tt day tt i rather enjoyed..and i suddenly miss zixu alot..haha damn i'm gay..and of course i miss binh hu's away in vietnam and jas also hu's working...can't believe tt i actually loathed the idea of getting back wif mi frens when i actually miss them so much...well...

Ok anywae, yesterday we had the match between juniors and seniors which of course i din play due to mi dumboness yesterday...which was indeed a blessing in disguise because i relly din wanna get drenched in the rain..Also, got the chance to spend time talking to mervyn and relly it was enjoyable to listen to him and juz talking and fooling around...even better when hermawan, liangfa yuxian james we all tok to gether and it relly was hilarious beyond words...

Had a buffet dinner afterwards which was surprisingly enough to feed 40+ starving boys...haha and we played an entrepreneur game in which we start from $0 cash to become rich pple..so started the game and mi and james were the most successful wif tonnes of property man..and the others hu were so heavily in debt were ganging up lar..so it was 4 against 2 and they were trying to destroy us which was virtually impossible wif our financial might..and then the bombshell came..the bankers were to decide an alliance which is 3 vs 3 and they had to separate those heavily in debt and those wif super financial power...and so mi will be against james...and of course the burden of the debt was passed across the alliance..

As the game wore on, the financial might between the alliances were getting more competitive and even and we were drawing thousands of dollars each time we passed the collect money area...and when time was up..i was pretty damn certain tt we would win since we were drawing $3150 each time while james' team was only drawing like $2450 which was kinda pathetic...but the ultimate winner was them!! argh!! they won by $300 at $17150 while mi team had only $16850...haha it was quite fun and until now..i still suspect tt james 'kope' some money from the banker and cheated man!! haha...but it relly was quite fun and competitive..i dun mind playing it again man!! so well..tt's all for the past few days..

it relly troubles mi to see pple troubled...haha anywae, i'm back from taiwan, and yar i'm troubled. Well, for pple hu sent mi sms-es and i din reply..i'm relly sorry!! haha merry christmas and a relly happy new year to u! hope u all enjoyed ur christmas in singapore..

About this taiwan trip, i juz have one word for it: fantastic. It served as a real temporary getaway from all things i have and cherish in mi life. Mi frens, mi class, mi computer, the soccer news i read..kinda felt a little like a hermit coz i din bother reading the newspapers in taiwan. Wanted a real getaway until the news of the tsunami got to mi via the tour guide. Was veh saddened by the news and i hope tt pple around mi would donate generously to associations tt are currently asking for donations for the tsunami homeless victims..

Anywae, gotta say taiwan is relly not a good place for shopping especially in the winter season, where most of the clothes sold are winter wear...argh...the night markets are also not veh good except for the roadside foodstores..Original products like shoes costs about the same as singapore and so no point to buy it and lug it back to singapore, and the pirated stuff are relly damn cheap but then veh outrageous too..like hugo boos, and adiais...etc haha i almost laughed mi head off when i saw hugo boos though..as opposed to the original brand hugo boss...haha

the tour guide was veh veh good, extremely knowledgeble, be it the social, cultural and political aspects of taiwan...even the history..and it's rather interesting to hear their views on the 319 president shooting incident this year and their views on ah bian..quite farni..coz i saw some shops selling wad ah bian3 gan1 mian4...

Got to knoe a few frens there of course courtesy of mi extremely extroverted sister...haha and relly she's like the monkey queen, attracting all the attention of the children and pple around her...i guess her ren2 qi4 is relly veh wang4...pple in singapore, mi frens etc call her butch ar tomboy ar etc..but in taiwan...more than 20 over pple and strangers told her tt she's cool, cute etc...oh man...some even compared her to olinda! haha i guess she's relly unique man..her dressing style and character...haha and oh yar..no one believed tt she's 16 years old man..they all tot she's like 14? or 13? haha

Made some frens wif a family wif 4 kids and they are all younger than mi..the youngest of the being 9 and the oldest being 15. 2 boys 2 gers. Can't believe tt i'm tt old tt mi age is double of the youngest boy's age. ANywae, his 2nd sis which is 10 years old has a veh interesting personality tt relly drew mi attention. Pls take note, i'm not a paedophile or wad but i relly found her innocence and character veh refreshing. I guess it's something tt i lack alot in mi life. Innocence. How blissful issit to be innocent? I did not know when i lost mine but i was sure tt it was a long long time ago. To others, the innocence tt i'm refering to might be branded as naive etc..but well..i guess i prefer to call it innocence...or rather tian1 zhen1 lan4 man4

It's a childhood innocence tt we all once possess but lost most of it as we continue to grow up and become matured. Sometimes i relly wish to become a little kid again! She nv doubts pple and treats pple wif the utmost sincerity and trust. How many of us out there actually trusts strangers tt we meet for the first few times? We are always on our guard no? Well, we have to be because the world is so dangerous..

Somehow, i juz feel tt this kinda innocence is veh veh valuable..and i juz haf a huge tendency to want to protect tt innocence, so tt she will not lose it and other children will nv lose it and be forced to grow up...idealistic i guess.

Back from taiwan, back to the troubles of this world, back to mi computer, back to mi frens...sometimes i wish i could get away for a longer time. I'm relly an escapist..somehow, i'm beginning to hate the world more and more, esp mi world. I relly hate being bombarded by negative thoughts and i relly needa get away from it all. Guess a long break would relly relly help..i shall plan mi next holiday soon, mayb in march. Well, for now, it's back to the world. I relly need to keep miself occupied from now onwards. I dun wanna have anymore free time. Pardon mi if i do not make any sense.

haha surprise!! haha i'll be going on a 7 day vacation to taiwan and i tynk i shld be back by 29th dec morning..in the meantime...dun miss mi..coz i'm leacing mi house in 3 hours time and mi flight is in 6 hours time..haha for those hu are shocked..haha take care lots..and merry christmas!! haha remember to msg mi a simple merry christmas when i'm in taiwan kk?? oh btw..now's 2am in the morning...For christians reading mi blog..please pray for journey mercies kk?? thx so much! Have a wonderful holiday all of u!!

juz back from watching the muscial 24/7 from mi church and i must say tt i thoroughly enjoyed it man!! haha all u pple out there hu i invite and nv come..it's ok, next year come again kk? will haf a nicer muscial waiting for u guys...limin and yue yiao...

ok lar..gotta admit..it was a little bit draggy but all musicals are liddat!! haha the songs they sang are relly wonderful and relly spoke to mi heart...veh homely feeling to hear the songs..was a musical bout the lives of a few families living in the same block hu were neighbours..their struggles and problems...and well..it's true..everyone in the world has problems and i relly liked the part where there's a scene where pple juz dump all their troubles into the 'garbage bin of regret' Quite a nice concept..haha

i'll juz summarise the part which i felt was most touching to mi..A christian man was retrenched when the company discovered tt he surfed pornographic websites in the office and then he received a call tt his son has been admitted to hospital after being banged down by a car...so the whole family rushed to the hospital and then of course lotsa singing..a song called all in a day was sung..and the father was juz bemoaning to God to spare his son..to give him a miracle..let all the judgement and punishment come unto himself and not unto his son...

so he was crying and crying lar..then light shone...the son awoke..haha and all of them danced together and sang together..of love, of miracles, of hope...and then the nurse called,' Mr wong, ur wife needs u in the room' only then did he realised tt it was all a dream...so well..after awhile the wife fainted after knowing her hubby lost his job and needed treatment..leaving the visiting neighbours by the son's bed...

the soon soon woke up..tynking tt he's in heaven and tt he's dead, and also thought tt his neighbours are the angels from God..so he sang a song..telling the angels to pass a message to his parents..tt he loved them both alot and tt he'll be waiting for them in heaven..and then..passed away..

well..the parents of course bemoaned alot and of course ask for miracles etc..but well..the son's gone..but the whole family has been so blessed by the son tt they start to feel God more strongly and love Him even more for blessing them wif such a good son..it's a damn touching musical lar basically but this part is juz a small part towards the end..almost cried a few times but well..controlled mi tears lor..

sin comes is so many forms...and all of us have sinned and have 'garbage' or rather our deepest darkest secrets...everyone of us would haf tt nobody would knoe..but well..God knoes...and on judgement day, no matter how well u hide, u will not be able to hide from God...but the good news is tt, our God came in the form of Jesus Christ and died on the cross for him...

Well..many will say..jesus dun even exist...but it's well documented in history tt jesus did exist and if he didn't..why would time be divided into bc and ad? before christ and anno domini( which means after christ ) ?? Dying on the cross might be juz a form of a cruel execution...but hu can understand the enormous torture upon him? Moreover to take upon the infinite no. of sins committed in the past, present and future when he Himself is perfect and sinless? Till todae..no one can ever point out any flaws tt Jesus made or any sins tt he has committed...the way he died? It's a kind of spiritual and mental torture tt man can never comprehend wif our finite understanding...

So God came and died on the cross for our sins so tt we can go to heaven and be reconciled wif God...other religions require u to do good things to ji1 de2...but christianity is not about doing..but rather it's about being done..Our passage to heaven is already guaranteed..and all we need to do is to say, ' Yes God i believe in u' tt's all...

When death comes..no one can avoid it..and well..those hu believe will be in heaven and those hu do not will be condemned to hell eternally...tynk it's a nice place to meet old frens? haha well..i dun relly tynk so..coz it's an eternal timeless space...coupled wif the extremes of physical mental and spiritual torture...i certainly hope mi loved ones and frens will join mi in heaven man...

It's easy to believe in God..juz needa say this short prayer:

Dear heavenly father, I am sorry for all the wrongs i have done in my life. Please forgive me. Thank you for sending Jesus to die on the Cross for mi sins. I now receive this forgiveness of mi sins and invite Jesus into mi life. Thank you for this amazing grace and i pray all this in Jesus' name. Amen.

kk..i knoe this sounds so stupid but..tag mi if u have said this simple prayer...It's a whole total new life and the beginning of eternity...

ehh...sentosa nothing to do wif mi previous entry for ur info mi dear limin! haha anywae...lemme talk bout the class outing to sentosa..jointly organised this wif all the pple in mi class and it felt good..coz relly i felt alot less burden and also get to knoe a few pple better like seng kiat..

anywae, we planned a picnic to sentosa and was supposed to meet at 12pm at dhoby gaut..but haha as usual..only 4 pple were present and i also also late!! so after buying all the stuff we needed, we set out to harbourfront to meet the rest of the pple and by then it was already about 3pm..we reached sentosa at about 3.30 and the weather was quite bad..well...not an ideal day for a picnic i guess and i sorta overlooked tt aspect..

so well, as expected it started raining sooooooo heavily and we had no choice but to have our picnic indoors at the southernmost point of the asia continent...haha so farni lar..i mean the stupid bridge tt lined sentosa to the blah blah point is so lousy!! so wobbly and always having human jams..after finishing the food, jianhong came and he brought along some sandcastle building tools! haha can see that melisa and seok fun were relly so enthu tt they immediately chionged down to build their sand castle...the guys played wif the rubber ball tt i bought which was initially intended for volleyballing..haha

soon, their sandcastle started to materialise wif 3 towers and a huge moat and then they started building railway stations, airports and so many other things tt it seemed like a real life simcity man..haha quite cool! The moat is so shiok lar..because when water is poured in, the water can actually be retained...beautiful...

then jianhong started to attempt to catch the small little crabs and he managed to caught one by tricking the crab into coming out of those small holes! he put the crab in a pail and junyuan unknowingly, dumped sand into the pail to continue to build the sandcastle...and so...despite jianhong and the other guys combined effort to find the crab..it was missing and so it was..the tale of the missing crabby...and a grave was drawn up for it so tt other crabs may come and pay their respect..haha so farni!!

jianhong returned to catch crabs along wif zhenjie while the gers continued to walk arouund to take pictures...haha took many zi4 pai1 pictures..which means tt the pictures were self taken and as u can see...they're all veh narcissistic creatures...like mi...hahaha! so farni lar! even took pictures of them attempting to do the starjump and it relly was not bad man...

After awhile, we played a few games like monkey, volleyball, soccer etc..and it's relly fun where we juz kick around fool around and laugh at each other...i guess..these are the moments tt i wun forget..the stressless playful moments..and then, the sky turned dark and we sorta like gathered in a circle..singing all kinds of songs...songs of frenship, modern songs on love and of course the ancient kind of songs tt are sung by fei4 yu4 qing1 tt junyuan is so familiar wif...haha..another heartening moment where we juz spend time together...this is the moment where time seems to stop, where we dun care where to go next, or wad to do next but juz sing and enjoy the moment, enjoy the night, and enjoy the serenity of the surroundings...

Juz then, zixu msged mi and jas to tell us tt he's leaving liao...and i juz felt an impulse to call him back..using melisa's phone wif the loudspeaker and we juz said bye to him and wished him well...we even sang a veh corny song to him..the ' wei2 wei3 bu1 yao2 pa2, ni1 shi1 hao2 wa2 wa2....' haha and i tynk he was quite amused by it..and we also forced him to be sad and to say tt he'll miss all of us...haha quite an enjoyable moment too...

SOon, we had to leave the blah blah continent and went to wash up..melisa washed her feet outside using the outdoor shower..she stood under 1 shower head and operated the other to wash her feet and feeling extremely naughty..haha i went to press the shower which was she standing under and she was quite drenched!! haha...this is also a moment tt i'll always replay again and again in mi head because it was so farni!! her shocked expression especially..haha

we went back to harbourfront for dinner while jas and val left because they had dinner at home and we talked more there..was talking to mel and boon cheng bout mi desire to become a dentist and mi hoping tt more pple would haf teeth like boon cheng so tt i can earn more money in future!! heh heh..i'm evil..and also we also talked bout signing up for courtroom dancing classes..tynk it'll be veh enriching and fun...

After sitting there and talking for quite a long while, it was already 9+ and it's time to go i guess...on the way down the escalator, chee keong msg-ed seng kiat frrom tekong to tell him tt ptp is still ok so far and not too physical..but he hates the water parade...hahaha...well..glad tt chee keong is fine man...

Although only 11 pple turned up todae...it was already veh fun and enjoyable although we did not do activities which were particularly happening...i guess sometimes, it's not the activity tt u're engaged in but rather, the pple around tt are accompanying u during the activity...haha it's veh cosy and comfortable...and of course veh enjoyable and memorable..i can't deny this but i relly love mi class alot...

haha, the pple tt did not come due to being overseas like binh ly eunike xinru and zixu...i can tell u tt u all missed out alot man!! haha to pple hu cannot make it due to other commitments like meiling xu cen sijie fiona and of course our ns man chee keong...haha u all also missed out alot but dun worry!! there'll be many many more opporunities to come and i relly hope u all can join us man...

all the pain and anguish tt i feel...i finally cannot take it...i finally cannot take it...i'm going mad...hu would tynk tt someone tt is so proud like mi would ever fall into this bottomless pit and having all mi feelings and thoughts and everything about mi so twisted and i juz cannot control miself anymore...

i've lost all control over how i feel...

eunike has gone back to indonesia...
xinru has gone to m'sia for holiday...
binh ly has gone back to vietnam and binh will only back in march while ly will try her best to come back...so she might not be back afterall...
cheekeong has been enlisted into the army...
zixu is going to Outward Bound Korea on sun...
i can't believe it...a class of 2 years..is finally splitting...the overwhelming sense of sadness is juz overcoming mi and i can't help tearing...

Prom night was over..took alot of pictures and tt about summed up the last formal gathering of the year for our class...and relly juz took alot of pictures wif mi dear frens and classmates...but I tynk wad happened todae, which is 2 days after prom is even sadder..

Juz sent binh and ly off in the morning...hmmm..they are our 2 vietnamese frens in class...and it’s relly been a great pleasure knowing both of them..esp binh hu is mi dear dear fren…knew her from pw and it’s been a fantastic 2 years wif her. Juz mentally running thru all the memories of pw, of the time mi and binh spent together talking..and relly..the time spent wif her is relly veh memorable..imagine mi sitting beside binh for most of mi lessons in class and even gp!! Took lunch together everyday etc…it’s juz a once in a lifetime chance and it’s a pity tt it has all ended..the special time we had together seeing each other for more than 6 hours a day will always remain in mi heart… the thought tt the whole class is already splitting was juz too much for mi to take I guess…this 2 years in njc..is without a doubt..the best 2 years in mi life…

Mi zixu jasmine xu cen went to send the both of them off tt day and it was quite fun..taking lotsa photos in so many different poses and also took lotsa farni pictures..haha I particularly liked the one which I took wif ly when I was strangling her!! Haha yar..we were late to the airport and tot that we had no time for pictures etc but we were so lucky tt their plane was delayed by an hour!! Great man..but well, time passes veh quickly and after snapping and snapping and mi close to exhausting all the space in mi memory card, they had to board the plane already and so it was..we escorted both of them to the departure hall and there we juz said our last words and started to hug each other…

It was at this point tt it’s the most emotional coz binh started tearing..zixu also started tearing a bit and relly..it was a veh touching and emotional scene..we each individually hugged binh and we even had a pw group hug..hai..at this moment, I was still feeling quite normal coz I knew tt binh would be back 3 months later and well, she’ll be back!

So after taking more pictures and saying our goodbyes..binh and ly finally went in..at this point..xucen could not help it anymore and started to tear..jasmine was also tearing and they were juz comforting each other…zixu also started to tear even more and finally when we lost sight of binh, we left for the mrt station..

I was still feeling so normal and then we juz plonk on the seat of the mrt at changi station and as usual..mi and zixu sat at a corner each while xucen and jasmine sat together..jasmine whipped out her journal and started writing down the days’ events..while zixu was juz staring blankly..memories running thru in his head and letting the thought tt binh has left sink in..and he juz could not control himself anymore and started to sob..It’s relly sad to see him so sad, but I did not try to console him coz I tynk he needs his space..All the time he spent wif binh, walking home together, talking almost everyday…no more chance ever…And jasmine tried talking to zixu and after listening to zixu tell her how he felt..jas also couldn't help it but tear again...i guess...his friendship wif binh is relly special..

So well, soon we were close to tanah merah interchange and suddenly mi eyes juz blinked so swiftly and I juz had to look away coz it’s so embarrassing to blink away like an idiot and veh soon, I juz cannot control mi tears and they juz welled and came out..luckily I was rather dehydrated and I din shed too many tears but I cried quite badly..it was the worst time I had cried since march when I knew tt I was cut from the team this year…Suddenly the thought tt binh has left juz sank in so deeply in mi..mi emotions are kinda lagged but well..the only thought I had in mi head was binh pronouncing ‘bytz’ ( our computer lab in nj ) as ‘biee’ and I juz cannot stop crying..even when I tot tt I had stopped, I continued sniffing away…

Xu cen was real nice to stand in front of mi..blocking off all the curious stares from the pple in the train..yar u knoe tt she’s so much taller than mi..yea..iand xu cen..if u’re reading this..i relly appreciate ur effort a lot..thx relly…and well..after a few stations..i finally got a hold on miself and managed to stop all the sniffing and tearing..

Even though this took place so early in the morning..i had the sour, crying after-taste in mi mouth for the whole day..even now as I’m typing mi entry and it’s kinda super uncomfortable because even as I’m typing this entry, the tears that haf built up in mi eyes are about to burst out and mi mouth juz gets drier and drier while I can feel mi mucus ready to flow out…

Relly looking forward to ur return…

tml is prom! haha and good news man..i juz found mi fav underwear!! haha it's from thomas smith anywae..but hai..couldn't find mi red pair..so no choicee..juz wear the grey pair...well..many things to do tml and i tynk it'll be quite a hectic afternoon for mi..

Gotta go to nus at 2-3pm for the talk by the faculty of dentistry...i knoe tt many will say tt it's hard, it's impossible for mi to get in etc..but well, at least it's something tt i haf an interest in and would like to find out more..afterall..heh heh..i've got a long history wif dentists man...

Then rush to bugis to get mi hair cut and wash and treated and then styled in Chapter 2...got an appointment wif them at 4pm! and well..shld end at about 5.30pm and then rushing to the metropole hotel where i'm meeting mi class and i'm going there to bathe and get ready for prom! yea...haha hectic rite? but not half as hectic as zixu hu gotta rush from the west to the central man...haha madness...

Hopefully, i'll be able to look nice tml!! ar...a long day ahead...hope i get better soon!

sickening sickness!! argh!! can't believe it..i'm like sick for 1 week plus liao..yet i still so stubborn, dun wanna see the doc..have to make so many trips to the tpoilet to clear mi phlegm and mucus...they seem to multiply at an extrermely fast rate man..furthermore, mi phlegm is like yellow..which means it's an infection lar...yellow solid phlegm..there's actually fixed blobs of phlegm at a specific size..tt's y it's so hard to spit them out man...mi chest and throat is actually hurting now from the intense coughing...argh!!

hey there! missing mi? whoa, i've been away for so long man...juz back from the pre ns camp organised by mi church and boy..it was damn fun coz i was the only trainee coz the other guy was sick and i had about 4 instructors/trainers wif mi. They are brothers hu have gone thru ns and was juz sharing their experience wif mi and relly, their testimonies inspired mi once again.

B4 tt, i wanna wish mi cg member jonathon, hu juz went back to the US after doing his NS in singapore a happy flight, he's probably back now as his plane took off yesterday..well..take care man!

Back to the ns camp, we watched abit of band of brothers and man, tt series is nice man..wanna get mi hands on the whole set of dvd so i can finish watching it. Played icebreakers, had sharing etc b4 embarking on Operation Saving Private Ryan...oh man..i can't believe it man..we walked sooooooooooooo far...argh..kinda reminded mi of the soccer camp last year where we trekked from nj to macritchie reservoir to bukit timah hill b4 jogging back to nj...this time...

Walked from church in bukit panjang around bukit timah hill via the zhenghua park and finally to macritchie reservoir where i was supposed to rescue 3 privates hu are lost and injured in the 'jungle'. Btw, we left church at 5 plus and halfway thru, we're already walking in total darkness..walked for bout 4hours..b4 finally reaching our destination..quite fun, i was supposed to save the 3 privates not only physically but also spiritually..and i relly suck at tt..yeap, was humbled by this operation man...by the time the whole operation ended, it was like 10+ and we had to walk from macritchie to bukit timah, b4 being able to flag a taxi back..walked a total of more than 10km again..in half army gear..

Haha quite interesting to carry an army bag, wif army pants and the new army boots..fun and enriching experience..learnt quite alog during this whole camped and relly enjoyed miself alot..well, it's another period of time where i spent away from the world, which i spent away from doing ordinary things like using the computer, and it was a veh nice and well rested week, i guess i'm all refreshed again after the chalet a few days ago and this pre ns camp..Learnt many important principles throughout and i wun mind having such hectic weeks again..as long as i'm kept busy and not doing mundane stuff..yeap..off to play soccer by mi church now..cya later

I guess in life, we all make mistakes. Recently i made a mistake, i admitted it in mi heart, but i couldn't admit it wif mi mouth, i dun haf the guts and the courage to tell others tt i'm in the wrong. Tynk i'm a coward but well, it's over. mayb one day i'll have the guts to apologise..

Juz finished the d'euqilco chalet, which comprises of the clique of us from co..hmmm, it was quite nice to laze around and do nothing at all i feel, mostly mahjong, lying around, poking fun at each other, walking around aimlessly etc...guess i took this chalet as a retreat, where i juz take time to be away from the world, away from mi computer and away from most crowds..kinda enjoyed tt relaxing feeling.

Was in one of mi more observant moods throughout the chalet and i juz wanna say tt everyone in the clique is unique and tt no one can be replaced by another..and i guess, the thing missing from this chalet are the pple hu cannot make it and well, their personality and character was sorely missed by all..Where there are gatherings, there will tend to be conflicts and sometimes i relly do feel veh uncomfortable. Can sense it based on pple's response and the way they behave and act, u can relly tell whether they're hostile..happens because of the missing personalities..oh well..nv tynk i dun make much sense coz i'm not apecific and i'm not going to anywae.

Made many more observations tt i wun say it but well, i enjoyed making mi observations..and i realised some things bout mi frenship wif pple too, guess i put too much pressure and i relly expect too much from these pple. I guess i relly shld learn to let go of them..because it relly defeats the original purpose which is for them to be happy..By not letting go, i'm actually worsening the relationships and causing unhappiness and awkwardness. It's over anywae...