I shld have been in tekong now because i was picked to do guard duty on sunday and the practice is tt for sun guard duties, we have to be back there the night before to prepare ourselves..but no..here i am at home typing this entry and i'm not even on mc...

I received a call from mi sergeant at about 1.30pm yesterday which was a friday. He told me that i was on reserve guard duty for friday itself and i have to get back to camp immediately since 1 of the trainees was sick. At that time i did not suspect anything and i was prepared to go change to book in already. He then asked mi if i wanted to go ocs and there i was giving him the most frank answer i can ever come up with. After weeks of tynking thru this question, i still could not come up wif an answer. So i told him tt i honestly could not decide.

Seriously, in mi first 2 weeks of sispec life, i relly wanted to leave tt place and go to ocs because i could not stand the oc and the system in mi charlie company. But subsequently, i got to knoe mi sergeants better, and of course got to knoe mi section mates better, i relly felt comfortable and dun relly wanna go to ocs anymore. So mi sergeant told mi tt since i can't decide, he'll decide for mi and that i've been selected to go to ocs and was required to book in that night to pack up everything...

And there went mi long weekend break man..that day itself i had to rush to prepare the documents needed and get mi attire for ocs. Actually, i did not relly knoe wad to expect from ocs. I did not knoe about the culture there, the training there and of course the people there. I was quite apprehensive and still in a state of shock that i got selected. Can u imagine? The place where officers train...haha i can't imagine man..

The moment i stepped in that place, i could already feel the pressure to be the best. Everything they provided for us was almost the best. Accomodation, food, environment....perfect..perfect for training to be the best. I could also feel the tremendous expectation from the commanders and from the other trainees who were in ocs all along since bmt though we haven't met them yet. It's like they expect us, the people who crossover from sispec, to be the best in everything since we're supposed to be the 'elite' from sispec.

I guess i dun relly feel tt great because i knoe mi own limits and weaknesses. Last night, after packing mi stuff, i was juz lying on mi bed and asking God why He planned for mi to go to ocs...i dun understand and i can't see mi destiny. I dun understand why he wanted mi to be there. All these questions, will be answered in time to come but hopefully till then, i'll be able to continue to read mi bible and continue in mi walk consistently. He has blessed mi alot so far although twice in a row, He has placed mi in the tougher companies of sispec and ocs. I'm sure He has a reason for that and i'm juz going to trust Him to mould mi character in his image. Already i can feel a change in mi since i go into sispec..i guess it's because i rely on God more than myself..i must continue to surrender man..

Anywae james brought up a point juz now. He said that last time in bmt, we all worked hard in order to work towards our ocs dream and avoid sispec...but now that i'm in sispec, i dun relly wanna go over to ocs..haha it's quite wierd lar..but then again, y most pple wanna go ocs is because of the prestige that comes wif the rank compared to being a sergeant. I dunnoe about miself but i juz wanna go there and proof to the rest that sispec can produce good trainees too. I wanna proof to mi commanders that ocs is not the only place to produce top class people..but to do that..i have to rely on God once again because like i said..i'm a weak person..

Tt's all for now..hopefully the next time u guys see mi will be next week man! Bless you guys and take care.

It's been 2 long hectic weeks so far and i'm juz glad tt it's all over. A pity tt i'm feeling so sick that i can't meet up wif any of you out there. So it's been 2 consecutive stay in weekends for mi and it juz feels good to be at home, reading newspapers and books and catching up wif the bits and pieces of news that i've missed. For the whole of last week, i was out in the jungle everyday, learning more about battle formations and section movements and it sure was exhausting man.

On monday, juz when the afternoon exercise had concluded and we were walking back to our gathering point, i suddenly felt a sharp pain at mi lower back. Of course i "argh-ed" and i was trying to find out if an ant bit mi. Mi sergeant came over and tried to help mi check and even peeked into mi pants to see if it's a fire ant and juz when he told mi to take out mi shirt, i felt another jab this time on mi right elbow..so i threw down mi sbo and frantically took out mi shirt. Actually i was quite flustered coz i din knoe wad in the world bit mi and mi sergeant had to help mi remove mi shirt and throw it onto the ground.

Juz then we saw a silver centipede of about 8cm crawling away..and well we more or less knew what bit mi and mi sergeant went to step on the centipede saying " you dare to bite mi trainee, this is ur day man.." Was quite touched when i heard that lar and he quickly led mi back to the gathering point to let the medic attend to mi. One of the warrant officers came and applied some disinfectant around mi wound and asked mi to sit down for awhile and if nothing happens in 30min then i'm fine.

So i juz sat there, wif mi wounds throbbing and hurting very badly. It feels juz like a huge spider continuously biting at the spots and the muscle around mi wound was contracting so much that i felt tt mi back was spasm-ing a little. The wound near mi elbow was not so bad because i supposed that most of the centipede venom went into mi back during the initially sting. Luckily it was only a small centipede man, after about 45 mins, the contracting feeling had disappeared and i was fine already.

But after mi ordeal, i'm very afraid of centipedes and bugs and anything now and i'd jump at the slightest feel of bugs on mi skin. Once bitten twice shy..since i was bitten twice, i shld have twice the fear man..And after tt i was wondering, along wif the centipede venom, there'd be some centipede dna being transferred into mine, and where would that centipede dna be in mi body?? hmmm..i wonder if mi dna has been mutated or changed slightly..

So well, tt's monday and from wed to sat, we had our 4 day field camp termed Exercise Catwalk. We did 3 missions a day, one in the morning, afternoon and night and i found is quite enjoyable. At least i feel tt it's not as tough as the field camp in bmt and surprisingly, it's even more slack than when we were back in our company line man..the missions conducted were ambush and offensive operations and we basically did almost the same thing everyday till everyone of us had a chance to hold various appointments within the section.

Oh i also have to add that i saw scorpions and wild boars too. Apparently, the wild boar charged at 1 of mi platoon's section and luckily, no one was injured haha and i din knoe that the wild boars had names too. Mi sergeant told us that they're called johnny and susan..haha and yes the scorpion was big and fat man..argh..and it was so difficult to kill..tt scorpion..haha 1 sting is enough to ensure that u dun have to go back to camp for at least 1 week..haha

Well i guess i'm gonna stop here. To agnes happy belated birthday man..I'm sorry i couldn't wish you because mi handphone was not with mi at that time but well..i'm sure u enjoyed ur day.

For you ntu pple out there like jas val seok fiona, fiona and pamela, limin and agnes..i hope you pple will enjoy ur new school term and new school life. Especially to limin agnes and jas mine who'll be staying in the campus. Hope that u gers will make more frens and better invite mi to ur campus to drink milo man..take care and have fun.

I've decided to forget some memories that are already unworthy and undeserving of remembrance. Perphaps, it's all been planned for it to end before it has even begun. So well, let the erasing begin! To friends out there who are reading this post, dun worry bout mi lar k? I'm juz babbling nonsense. And to shawna ah ma, dun forget, we have a challenge on 2 Peter man..heh heh heh...enjoy ur new sch term too.

Ouch! the abrasions that i've received from the 2 day navigation exercises still hurt like mad man..i haf 1 on mi thighs and now tt area is super dry and it seems that it's gonna peel off any moment..But the wierdest place that i had an abrasion is my nipples. Somehow, the FAD ( First Aid Dressing ) that i placed in mi left breast pocket juz continued to rub against mi chest and it began to feel sore and hurt man..seriously...it's damn damn painful and that was the first time i got an abrasion in mi whole army life so far..of all places man...

Todae i slacked mi whole day since most of mi frens weren't free and some of them are overseas for holidays..haha in a way i get to rest and watch mi vcds but i'd rather go out!! haha well tml i'm going back to camp again and i hope i'd be able to keep up mi high spirits...

I'm back!! And seriously but wierdly, i'm starting to enjoy life in sispec despite my company being the strictest and the most 'xiong'. I guess i've learnt to adapt to sispec life fully and like wad zixu said, becoming 'corrupted' hahahaha..It's relly wierd, i relly learnt alot alot of things in mi 3 weeks in sispec and i have tests like once every few days! On signals, weapons, navigation etc..and we juz had 2 navigation exercises on wed and thurs called gypsy 1 and gypsy 2 respectively.

The difference is that ofor gypsy 1, our instructors will guide us around the forests in tekong. Oh by the way, our navigation exercise is throughout tekong and we have to look for checkpoints at specific gridpoints on the map. And these points are marked by a small medal board placed on a tree and it's real small and we have to locate these points within the forests. I din relly learn much in gypsy 1 since mi instructor was juz bringing us around and teaching us to find the checkpoints.

But on gypsy 2, we were split into groups of 4 and we had to navigate around wif juz compass map and the mgr of the points. And if we were caught walking on the tracks instead of bashing thru the forest, we would be taken back to the start point. So mi detail, we basically heck everything and decided to bash through the thick foliages. And tekong jungle is no joke, full of fallen trees, hornets nests, ants nests etcetc...all the branches and undergrowth intertwining..and i was the first navigator of mi group..

Before we even walked 20m, i almost rammed into a huge spider resting in the middle of its web and i was so freaked out that i shrieked, jumped back super far and grabbed mi buddy all in a split second until mi whole group was in shock...hahaha damn farni man..i hate spiders...then another time i saw another huge spider tt is red and black lar! damn damn scary i almost had heart attack man..but well after a few hours of bashing, we found our checkpoint and i was ecstatic man! haha it feels damn good..

Then we headed for the night start point and again we had to bash through super high lalang and grass to find out checkpoints. And again, it was pinned on a tree and the surroundings are all trees! Spent more time combing the area than walking to the actual point itself..And after tt we walked back to sispec and in total, we walked about 16km tt day man..and since each group had a huge signal set to carry to contact hq in case of emergencies etc, i often hear calls of distress of groups being lost in the jungle man...haha and they kept calling and calling again and again...quite farni lar..because there were 3 groups huddled together, lost in the forest...

Yup and todae i had signal test and the sets are relly quite fun to play wif, the codes and everything man..hope i can be a signal specialist!! so fun!! anywae i juz booked out and chionged to cine to catch the fantastic 4 wif zixu it was quite a nice show..and i relly like von doom's powers man...well go watch tt show it's great. And tml and sunday i'll be free! hahaha so if u all wanna ask mi out..better ask now!

ok here is it. i shall stop feeling angry. Must learn to ignore. Ok yup, i enjoyed the night wif my friends. I enjoyed walking in the night actually and i relly wanted to walk over to the esplanade for awhile but i guess sometimes i needa compromise. I so miss walking in that area but well i guess i always have another time..The bag is fantastic and if u guys see mi carrying a cool bag..yup that is it, the nicest bag i've ever owned to date..hahaha mi quite sad case rite??

And yes the card that sengkiat printed...it was nice man..first time i received a printed card too and fresh from the printer also!! Sometimes it's not the presents also but the care from mi frens...and yes jasmine made a super duper cool homemade birthday card frrom mi which i tot was fantastic. The cut articles were super relevant and it relly takes alot of effort man..thx for everything.

And this year i received a record breaking 37 messages from all mi frens!!

in order received message...

Janie, jasmine, eexuan, xiaoqian, limin, peiyuan , shihui, valerie, fiona(03s08), eunike, MACDONALDS, yue yiao, wenjun, shawna, eric, fiona shi, pamela, zixu norman, mingyong, angela, cheekeong, gary, xinru, binh, pratheesh, meiling, agnes phang, royston, weiling, elsa, cliffton, peichun, seokfun agnes yan, mum, cousin kathleen, george...

Yeap...fantastic bunch of messages man..and i spent mi bdae rushing here and there, attending lectures and having some navigation exercises. Until about 10+ that night and after bathing..i immediately got down to the daunting task of trying to reply everybody who messaged mi and it was a joy..because i managed to give mi fingers some needed exercise since i only get to use mi com once a week..I only finished msging at about 12+ man and by then i was feeling damn damn tired...but feel very blessed to have so many friends who wished mi..haha thx to u guys man..u guys relly made mi day..

And if u pple read theu the names..u would realised that Macdonalds is part of them..haha and this is wad they said:

Dear NICK, Happy McBirthday greetings to you from the management and staff of McDonald's Singapore! We have decided to give you 10 free extra value meals as a birthday gift. Thank you for supporting us!!

Are you guys jealous?? hahaha i have 10 free extra value meals!! haha jokin lar..."We have decided to give you 10 free extra value meals as a birthday gift. Thank you for supporting us!!" this part is fake..anywae some pple also asked mi y i did not send out reminder sms-es..hmm..i guess i juz wanna see hu remembers mi bdae and relly..damn happy! haha

Had a mini discussion todae on pple's birthdates and i realised tt mi can't relly remember anybody's bdae..and i juz feel quite bad tt other pple make an effort to remember mine..i guess i shall get a bdae diary and write down everyone's bdae there..yeap..excellent day todae..

I shall post another entry and type out the messages tt i received! haha fantastic!

I'm now superbly pissed. Now i understand y some pple would rather sign on in the army and not come out to the civilian world to face the realities of life. In the real world, there are so many problems and so many choices. And every choice u make would have different effects altogether. Choice of who to go out wif, choice of wad to do, choice of wad to eat etcetc and in a way after being in camp for so long and being told to do this and do that, i've sort of become accustomed to the choice-less type of life.

In there, we dun relly have any choice on wad to do, on wad to eat and in a way it's quite a relief. I'm juz very tired todae. My mind juz can't stop reeling at all. Taking in all the details from the environment, from the pple around mi and of course trying to perceive their moods and characters at that time and it's so tiring. And at some points i juz choose not to tok at all. And halfway thru mi food i din relly had any appetite at all. And i can't wait to get out of that place.

Ok enough about shit. I dun wanna tok bout this shit anymore. The minute i came home, i bathed and immediately went to meet up wif mi frens. They were zixu jas seok val fiona sengkiat and cheekeong. We had dinner at swenson's after wandering around for some time and i did something stupid which spoilt mi mood.

Anywae we were finishing our food when they ordered a firehouse thingy wif a candle to like celebrate mi bdae..haha and i was like reminding them to sign a bdae song for mi..it was quite farni lar...then they passed mi present which was a relly nice khaki coloured puma sling bag and i relly liked it alot. It was relly very nice..fantastic man..juz when i needed a new bag

After that we went off to catch War of the Worlds which was quite a good show lar..the effects and everything was good and although i din quite like the storyline, i dun tynk tt i shld fault the movie because it was juz an adaptation from the book and it was quite well shot. The show ended at about 11.30pm and well we decided to take the cab since last bus and last train have gone..I tynk i did a very lousy tribute to mi frens who spent so much time and money to celebrate mi bade. I guess i'm not relly in much of a mood either. I tynk i'll write more when i feel better..

And also to all those who sms mi..a tribute to u guys in mi next entry...