As i said, i'll be updating mi blog..and gosh, 3 weeks have flown by and i actually have not touched this blog for 3 whole weeks. How fast time flies. Many things have happened in the last few weeks but i shall touch on the main event tt happened this week. On wednesday, we took a helicopter from lam kiong, somewhere in jurong near tuas 2nd link, to yishun!! The entire duration of the flight was about 10min and we flew along the perimeters of singapore, such that we can actually see malaysia and yet still be in singapore's territory..The view was magnificent and breathtaking..i guess it's one of the things in life that pple seldom get to experience especially the gers...haha

Actually i have many things to say, but i juz dunnoe how to express miself. I feel quite disappointed wif miself in a few ways. The things i did, the things i said, as well as the mistakes i made. Of course i'm also upset by the way some things turned out for mi family and well, i juz hope i could turn back time. And i tynk this time i'm hurt quite deeply by all these factors. For the past 3 weeks, i've been unable to sleep well at night. My buddy has caught mi sleep talking. And i realised tt i grind mi teeth alot because every morning mi mouth hurts like hell. I know all these is no excuse but it has really made mi more short tempered and easily angered. The problem with mi is that i'm unable to seek closure for the mistakes i made. I'm unable to forgive miself and everytime i get reminded of all these mistakes, i'll reprimand miself again and again such that i'm torturing mi heart and mi soul.

I hope i relly could change the way things were.

Your Power Color Is Indigo

At Your Highest: You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you. At Your Lowest: You require a lot of attention and praise. In Love: You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are. How You're Attractive: You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic. Your Eternal Question: "Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"

What's" Your Power Color?

Juz testing...shall update later..now at zixu's hse wif binh....

I haven't posted an entry for 2 weeks already!! In a way, i'm like zixu, penning down the memories and thoughts tt i have in a diary but i dun tynk i'll be able to type all of them out since mi entry is based on a daily basis. Moreover, each entry is incredibly long and i'm lazy to type out everything. Why a diary now? I realised that blogging once a week is not feasible coz i'll easily forget the things i did(sometimes) and the things i think about or muse like wad zixu said. In order to prevent tt i've got miself a diary!! It's not relly private as in pple closer to mi can ask from mi to read it.

Anywae, i'll juz tok about yesterday, when we completed our exercise dump-in. I juz felt that it was kinda dumb to lose to many items lar...We were dumb lar. We almost lost a saw gas regulator and a magazine and an et blade and stick...and we lost a HELMET when we unboard the bus back at ocs. I mean much as i dun wanna criticise the fella because he has been given enough punishment, i can't help it but find it extremely 'amusing' and extremely 'disturbed' that the helmet was not brought down the bus! I mean it's like our own personal responsibility. But then again, each of us have out own flaws and criticise as i like, when i'm tt shag from almost 40 hours of no sleep, i juz can't help feeling ranting...

Especially when the intructors were feeling itchy and punished us for those mistakes we made. I felt the helmet thing was the final straw after this disastrous exercise and it serve as a catalyst for the intructors' wrath...we did so many alternate leg thrusts after some pushups and crunches that at the end of it i can't relly feel mi legs anymore. It was first 50 counts of 4 of alternate leg thrusts but at 30 counts lieutanent fadhil said we did like shit and gave us another 50 counts of 4...so we did 80 counts of 4...u pple shld try it man...crazy feeling. Normally we wun feel tt tired, but hello...At the end of the week, where we had 10km et run, 10km fast march and 40 hours of no sleep, how can we not feel tired man...

But relly, the onus is on us to prove the intructors wrong. Mi take is that our instructors have been soooooooooo fair and good to us thus far. Giving us welfare, helping us understand, and wad we return is certainly not good enough i feel. We always want to better our standards, but somehow always face some farni adversities like this losing of equipment, and then the instrctors will be disappointed again. Well i dunnoe wad to say anymore...

This bookout is extremely short, because i only have about 5 more hours at home...before booking in because i have an exercise tomolo...exercise hunter it's called. It's a close terrain navigation exercise and i hope we wun cock up like today anymore...haha