was during civics period when zhenjie reminded mi to confirm the no. of pple going for prom nite in our class. Asked the class and i expected mayb the most bout 5 hands...budden i saw tt seok val and even boon cheng has raise their hands up...so i politely reminded them tt i was asking for pple not going, not pple tt are going, tynking tt they heard mi wrongly, but alas, they've decided not to go.

Well, i got veh disappointed, a bit of a shock, because i did not expect tt type of reception. Relly, but seok was relly nice and all, she even called mi during chem lect to explain to mi, but i still felt veh terrible. Coz i wanted them to go, yet i did not want to force them to do things against their wishes. So i was feeling veh conflicted.

Luckily, in the end, seok and boon cheng and all of them decided to go again!! and they even persuaded sijie to go!! And everyone also tried veh hard to persuade melisa and the others to go...relly..i was quite touched. For those hu are not going, well...i've nothing to say but well...i juz feel sad for u. U might regret it in future, but then again u might not...and if u do regret, well, it's too late. 1 thing for sure is tt this issue has caused alot of unhappiness in the class but nevertheless i relly thank the rest of the class for ur support.

If i offended anyone todae, i'm sorry, juz couldn't relly control mi emotions.

Another thing tt made mi relly angry was yida. I asked him to come wif our class for prom nite but he said tt he was going with oac. I asked him politely lar to come wif our class instead of wif oac and guess his reply...he snapped,' for wad! ' and i told him tt our class were short of pple to form 2 tables and he snapped again,' tt's ur problem!' mi goodness...such self-centeredness, i guess he juz doesn't feel any form of class spirit of any form at all...

I feel so utterly shibai, this whole year, i've been trying to integrate him into the class, make him feel less outcast and all...and now he's actually ostrasizing us man my goodness...such snobbishness, i relly feel tt i did a lousy job at trying to help him. I felt relly pissed after tt and i couldn't hold miself from scolding him...hai...shldn't haf lar...but well..

Anywae, we gonna share a table, 5 seats wif another class, coz we can't find anymore pple to come...sad...

Significance of prom night, mayb can see it as seeing the guys off for army, can say goodbye to ur cca frens, classmates etc too...so many meaningful things happening, juz enjoying tt moment, when we wun tynk of exams anymore, not tynking of the distant future for a moment, juz enjoying together as a class...as a sch...hmmm...

Another thing happened todae tt relly made mi feel like a jerk and so i've finally accepted reality and i accept the final decision tt i've made. Hopefully, pple around mi will not get hurt again.

Hope i made the right choice...