hai...been feeling incredibly stressed lately...and hence mi temper has been running real short. Things tt wun affect mi so much in the past can relly get mi relly upset this few days. Piano concert is this sun and i tynk no one is coming to support mi. CO concert is next sun and i tynk no one is coming to support mi either. Bother these concerts are the 2 stupid things that are giving mi all the stress. Besidees, the ticket sales is relly stressing mi out too. For mi piano, i gotta absorb the cost of the tix if no one comes. And for co, i tynk tys will probably do the same. And i tynk tt wad he said was true, i relly dun wanna perform in front of a concert hall tt is only 6% filled. Yes tt's how bad the ticket sales are. 6% only mi goodness and it's only a week away from concert. Have to try to get bout 80% tickets...
Mi piano exam is coming in a month's time and i am still playing like crap. No way will i ever pass wif tt kinda standard. It's grade 8 for heaven's sake. Juz can't believe tt i'm so lazy, not to start practising since last year and now, i stress miself out so much trying to crash course. I feel veh veh frustrated. If i fail grade 8, the next time i get to retake the exam...will be in 2+ years time due to army commitments. damn.
Mi studies are crap too. Doesn't help tt no one is encouraging mi to start studying now. The study environment is no good at all. Everyday i go to sch, i see pple working so hard, tt i get so stressed up. But i can't start. I shld start. But the environment is no good. Instead, i feel discouraged. And mi mind will run wild wif thoughts, with all mi thoughts and values conflicting. I dun wanna hurt pple. But if i dun, i will only hurt miself even more. Zx pls do not discourage mi further. Everytime u start commenting bout pple mugging or wad in our class and tt u can't stand it or wad, do u knoe how much it discourages mi? Coz i dunnoe wad to do. I wanna start, i have no time left. I got too many commitments. Pls dun add to mi burden.
I'm feeling like crap now. Total crap.
Mi piano exam is coming in a month's time and i am still playing like crap. No way will i ever pass wif tt kinda standard. It's grade 8 for heaven's sake. Juz can't believe tt i'm so lazy, not to start practising since last year and now, i stress miself out so much trying to crash course. I feel veh veh frustrated. If i fail grade 8, the next time i get to retake the exam...will be in 2+ years time due to army commitments. damn.
Mi studies are crap too. Doesn't help tt no one is encouraging mi to start studying now. The study environment is no good at all. Everyday i go to sch, i see pple working so hard, tt i get so stressed up. But i can't start. I shld start. But the environment is no good. Instead, i feel discouraged. And mi mind will run wild wif thoughts, with all mi thoughts and values conflicting. I dun wanna hurt pple. But if i dun, i will only hurt miself even more. Zx pls do not discourage mi further. Everytime u start commenting bout pple mugging or wad in our class and tt u can't stand it or wad, do u knoe how much it discourages mi? Coz i dunnoe wad to do. I wanna start, i have no time left. I got too many commitments. Pls dun add to mi burden.
I'm feeling like crap now. Total crap.
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