Back from the army temporarily because in less than 10 hours time, i have to go back to camp and it will be bout 6 days later before i can book out again. Well, i dun relly wanna tok bout wad happened in the ns camp though i kept a diary of all the happenings. There's something tt i found quite amusing though. On the 4th day of mi stay in tekong, we were queueing up in the canteen for lunch when out of the corner of mi eye, i noticed that there was a table draped wif some special cloth and there were small vases of flowers on it.

There were some white tags that said "Kowloon Club". Also, there were a few tour buse parked outside the canteen and some pple that looked quite hongkong-ish were having lunch at the table. haha..well, i tynk that the STB is abit desperate to use such a measure man. I can imagine how their itinery would sound like : Day 03. Today, you'll get to take a ferry to Pulau Tekong u can enjoy the scenery of a military island. Besides, you get to enjoy a special meal in SAF BMTC Sch2 canteen where you can have lunch wif our friendly recruits! You'll also get the rare opportunity to savour the superly aromatic sweat and food smell..

Haha, anwae i'm in Raven Company and it was a nice surprise to find out that zixu is the same company as I. At least i have someone tt i'm familiar wif tt i can see almost eveyday though we're from different platoons. Talking about zixu, if u happen to see this, u better come back to camp soon man, it's getting boring when i can't share mi tots wif anyone in mi camp. Btw, zixu's finger was infected and it literally swelled to the size of a carrot. In the end, the medical officer let him go visit a Singapore hospital where he undergone a surgery. Now he's only coming back on 7/5/2005. And i had to lug his stupid civilian bag home which was damn heavy..u owe mi a treat i dun care.

Life in the army is routine. We the recruits are serving our NS. Most of our sergeants are also serving their NS and generally they also wanna get it over wif. So it's like u dun piss them off and do things well, they wun punish u. Zixu's platoon has a farni sergeant though and guess wad's his name..He's called Sergeant Yasser Arafat. haha...no kidding man. I kinda like all mi sergeants, even mi platoon sergeant who some pple in mi platoon do not like. Initially i used to loathe and fear the sergeants, but as i got to knoe them better, i'm learning to see things from their point of view and learning how to love them/. I feel that behind every face, there's an exciting story to tell. Hopefully i will get to knoe mi sergeants' stories.

As usual, in any setting, there'll be bootlickers, and pple hu like to wayang or show off. These are the pple that tynk that they're veh capable and always like to show their leadership qualities to the sergeants. They also like to show lotsa initiatives when the sergeants ask for volunteers. However, all those behind the scenes jobs, when the sergeants wun knoe anything, they would not even care. That's something tt i relly can't stand. In the end, I had to do everything and had to take initiative. Always waking up earlier than others and doing all these work. I'm not saying tt i'm veh good, always take initiative, but somehow i wish that others would come and help out more because it's mostly mi and mi buddy doing most of the sai kang ( shit work ).

There was also one day when i broke down while in mi platoon level. Btw, i'd relly like to tell others how many platoons i haf in mi company and how many pple i haf in a platoon, but all this knowledge is restricted especially in a blog setting where everyone can read. So those hu relly wanna knoe, u can ask mi in private. And this information is sensitive because if the enemy or spies knoe all thes information, they can start planning out their attacks because they can predict the exact size of our army. Ok back to mi breaking down. I juz started to sob uncontrollably. That night, b4 mi sobbing, we were kinda punished for reporting late and we had to run up and run down in our Full battle Order which was extermely heavy and straining. And i guess tt day, all the stress in mi was too much to handle combined wif anger and i juz had to let out everything.

Immediately i felt better but i guess now everyone tynk tt i'm weak because i cried. Oh well, i shld stop caring about pple's opinion of mi and juz get on wif mi life. There was another time when we were punished because we reported late again. This time the first few to come down had to get into pushup position wif our Standard battle order and rifle wif helmet until everyone is down. I was the 5th to get down and i was literally in that position for bout 5mins..Mi hands and legs were already trembling like mad and mi as well as mi section mates, hu most of the time are the first down were all quite angry tt some pple in our platoon, despite seeing us suffering like that, still took their own sweet time to report down and some were even walking. And the fact that the first to come down was punished more than the last to come down made it worse..oh well...we were lucky tt the sergeant hu punished us was sergeant hafriz and he's the nicest sergeant in mi platoon.

I guess i juz must learn how to love mi army mates and the army life i'm leading. I dun wanna lead a miserable 2 years. I'd rather it an enriching and positive experience man..so i guess i shall end here mi frens. For those hu haf wished mi well..i juz wanna thank u, esp to royston hu has msged mi quite a few times in camp to find out how i am. Too bad he's having his field camp now..thx to mi frens hu posted on mi tagboard too..see you guys soon..

Oh yar..and i guess i'm quite stressed out recently. I got shortlisted for dentistry which is a gd thing, but i'd haf to book out for mi manual dexterity test on tuesday and mi interview on friday. And on friday, it might clash wif mi technical handling test which is very important. And i'm also veh uncertain about mi future..about dentistry, because entry is not within mi control at all. And sometimes i get affected because i dunnoe whether pple are sincere when they wish mi well for interviews because they haf better frens applying for the course too..oh well..i dunnoe..i'm juz incredibly sensitive sometimes.

In addition, i still feel quite bad tt i imposed on mi army fren tt nite. He offered to give mi a lift to yishun but we had to squeeze 6 pple into a 5 seater car and well, i felt quite bad. Esp since his whole family came and they wanted dinner at sembawang, but they had to go yishun instead to send mi. Mi fren din relly knoe his parent's plans too when he offered mi..and at 9+, the whole family still had not had dinner...hai..i dun like the feeling of mi being a liability or burden and relly..it's weighing mi down considerably. Oh well..at least later i get to drive mi dad's car to church..haha okok..enough for now..

As i woke up today, i can't help juz sitting on mi bed and look around mi room. Afterall, i wun be sleeping in this place very often in the next few months depending on mi posting. I guess i'll miss mi bed and mi room..Especially mi bolster and mi silk blanket lar..it's soooooooo comfortable..

Anywae, since last night, i've received many messages to encourage mi and to sorta send mi off? haha agnes msg mi to remind mi not to be gay...hahaha wenjun msged mi to tell mi not to be sad saying the " the boys will become men ". Shawna and gary and alvin chiam msged mi to tell mi to fix mi eyes on the cross and not to forget to pack mi bible..And of course to rely on the strength of God, not miself..Boon cheng also msged mi last nite and told mi not to be too sad..can also see the encouragement on mi tagboard..haha touched..kk..

Jasmine also msged mi to tell mi not to be worried and sad anymore and to look beside mi coz she's always there! haha so touching rite?? Valerie's msg juz came in..telling mi to take care and tt she can't wait to see mi 2 weeks later wif mi new hairstyle..argh..botak..Binh's msg juz came in saying tt she will miss mi and tt zixu said see mi in tekong tml...haha so farni man...ok thx man all of u..Royston and george both msg mi to give mi advice too and royston said tt finally i joined them..Afterall, i'm the last of the guys frrom d'euqilco to enlist into the army..

Now's 11.30am..Mi whole family including mi ah ma is coming to see mi later..and thx in advance for others hu msg mi ok? haha i'll miss all of u guys and u guys better miss mi too!! haha this blog will probably be stagnant for awhile...i'll be back..

haha...it's about 14 hours before booking in tml and mi sister regina juz came back bout an hour ago with great news!!

She was chosen by the Football Association of Singapore (FAS) to take part in a competition in korea!! Here's wad the letter to her sch principal sounded like:

AFC WOMEN'S U17 CHAMPIONSHIPS, KOREA REPUBLIC 2005

Tan Shu Ying Regina

We are pleased to inform that the above-named student of your school has been selected to represent Singapore in the in augural AFC Women's U17 Championships in Busan, Korea Republic.

In this regard, we write to seek your approval to grant her leave of absence from 13 to 28 April 2005 for this compeition..

Shiok or wad?? By the way, AFC stands for Asian Football Confederation...And she gets to play against all the powerhouses of asia like china, japan, korea...wah!! i mean it's a once in a lifetime opportunity...Though only towering at a height of 1.48, the fact tt she managed to break the first team as a striker is relly miraculous!!

As her brother, i relly feel damned proud of her..too bad i can't be there in korea wif her to cheer her on but i'll be cheering her on from mi camp!! haha Wah..if singapore relly gets into quarter finals or wad then mayb u'll get to see mi sister in the papers man...haha

Well, i tynk i'm fine already...juz gonna spend time reading the bible more when i go in..haha..and mi bag is seriously quite heavy...hmmm...

Ok this is the post...This is it, it's 12.10am wednesday and i juz can't control mi emotions any longer. Well, most of you know tt i'm going in at 3.45pm on thursday which is like 1 and a half days later and i'm currently feeling extremely emotional. And i juz wanna declare...I DUN WANNA GO NS!!!

Many pple will console mi by saying, "it's only 2 years while mine was 2.5 years", " Going into ns will make u a MAN", " it's not the end of the world!" i mean like of course i knoe all these lar...it's not because of fear, not because of anything particular but rather, i dun wanna live apart from mi home and mi frens.

I wanna come home daily to see mi parents and mi 2 sisters..I also wanna see all mi gd frens tt i've come to love after so many years...It's not the fear of lonliness, but it's the leaving part. A few months ago, binh left us for vietnam to visit her family and frens. I felt sad. This time, it's mi and zx's turn to leave, and of course i also feel sad. I can imagine how boring and mundane life is in the army.

However, i guess this is a phase all must go through; regardless of whether i want it or not. Of course there are some positive things like going to make some new friends, learning how to be more independent and so on. But i guess it's juz too little to compensate for the time tt i could have spent wif mi family and frens. And moreover, juz when i got the RARE desire to study and aim for mi BDS ( Bachelor of Dental Surgery ), i had to go and serve the nation.

Well, with all that said, i'm gonna prepare for mi dentistry interview tml man..Hope i do well enough to secure a place in nus...To all mi gd frens like zixu, janie, yue yiao, fiona, norman, agnes, D'euqilco, jasmine, binh, pple from AGAPE cell group and pple from 03s08..i hope tt u guys will not miss mi too much ok? But well, occasionally when u're bored, u might wanna send mi a little msg and i'll try mi best to reply..

It's also time to let go of mi captaincy of aflame football team. Speaking of which, the standards have started to plummet again and i'm relly quite worried..hopefully mi and liangfa's retirement will not cause the team to crash..I will definitely miss those jokers from the team, the numerous sunday afternoons playing beside church, and of course our historic victory a few weeks ago..

Also, mi volunteer work at the Bukit Ho Swee Family Service centre has halted. I guess the stint i had there exposed mi to pple who are unable to keep pace wif the modernisation of our society..I hope tt it wun be the last time tt they'll see mi there..

I can't believe it, the 3 months leading to ns has juz gone by like the wind. A few months ago i was juz starting to learn driving..and thankfully i got mi license now. A few weeks ago, i was still playing badminton wif yue yiao and her parents on saturdays. A few weeks ago, i also badmintoned ( somehow it's used as a verb by zixu ) wif zixu and am going to badminton wif him again later on in the day.

I can't exactly describe how i feel right now..hmmm....

Went out wif mi cell group member gary to get to know him better..it's relly a nice talk where we discussed alot about God, and some questions i had about catholics and protestants...Got to knoe each other's personality more too!! After tt i met janie and yiqi in town and they forced mi to treat them to a chocolate milkshake from mos burgers and we spent hours talking there lar! It's relly true when pple say time passes so fast because i din even realised tt we talked for 3 hours lar...haha and janie made mi a fantastic card...it's so fantastic and so touching man...hai..guess i'll relly miss u like mad!

Had an absolutely fantastic day at binh's flat yesterday. Mi zx and jas were supposed to meet at 11am at the bus stop outside her flat and as usual, jas was the earliest at 11.30pm..The farni thing was tt binh called zixu to tell him tt i was there already and he's the latest and about 1 min ago, so coincidental, i saw him on away mode and msged him to ask him when he was going to leave his hse...hahahaha anywae we met on the met on the bus and reached at about 1pm..

And so at binh's flat, we were intro-ed to her other flatmates and proceeded to play jenga...It's sth like uno stacko, juz tt it's the truth or dare edition and some of the dares were relly quite farni like the one tt says " Smell someone's feet." and another one tt says " kiss someone in the room" scary rite?? esp the one which says smell someone's feet..like EWWWWW!!! lar...

Luckily, we juz played it normally, without the dares..played a few rounds before we went down to have cheap lunch..After tt we went to clementi to get the ingredients needed to cook the vietnamese fare and went back immediately..Binh started to prepare the food while mi zx and jas were competiting to see hu could make the tallest structure wif the jenga blocks and i was about to win when a mysterious gust of wind destroyed mi structure..in the end, i lost to zx and jas lar...argh..

Jas and zx started to create their own dominoes from the blocks and sadly, the toppling only lasted 2 seconds..we then helped binh wif the preparation. I helped to transform the entire chicken into chicken shreds and after tt i guess i was too sick and tired to help out anymore..i need to sleep earlier!!

Finally after much preparation, dinner was ready and i must say tt the vietnamese springrolls are still veh nice..watched star wars on tv and talked a little until chung, binh's vietnamese fren from nj 03s07, suggested tt we play bridge..And gosh we played till about 11pm man...Binh suggested tt we play 1 last round of jenga, but this time wif forfeits..The loser had to do 2 dares...and we were all damn scared lar...imagine smelling someone's feet...haha

So many times, i tot tt the other pple would kena the toppling but they all managed to survived!! And finally, it's back to mi and the stuff toppled...so so suay...and i picked 2 dares..and so so suay lar!! ok we agreed not to divulge anything but relly...it's relly relly damn suay lar!! haha but i guess all of us had fun, even though mi zx and jas had to cab home..

The best thing was tt i boarded a citycab, and the midnight surcharge was only 35%!! I love citycab!!

2 more days man...Thursday 7 April 3.45pm is juz looming so close, tt i'm juz afraid tt i'm short of time to spend wif mi frens...Currently, i still haf wednesday morning and afternoon free...Who wanna book mi pls msg mi man...ok it's late..time to play games...tata~!

I currently have 3 more days of non-army life before i go to army man..hai..and xinru juz sms-ed to wish mi happy booking day..haha..at first i was still quite ok bout the idea of army and all until mi fren had to remind mi that the tekong arachnids are huge man..For pple hu dunnoe, i have arachnophobia!! Which is the fear of arachnids or spiders...I can't imagine how i'm gonna survive there during field camp!!

It reminds mi of the show aliens..can't seem to get the scene where the alien was impregnating the man by attaching itself to the man's face...Man..it's like walking right into the spider wed wif the spider resting in the middle!! Yuck! And he had to tell mi that there're many cobras and centipedes there too!! Man, i'll probably faint every few days..

And btw, i drove again todae!! Drove mi family to the bowling centre where we bowl, I still remember the times about 5 years ago where we would go and bowl together weekly..I guess everyone's busier now but still nice to spend such quality time together...laughing at each other..

Recently a few events have affected mi quite alot and i would be lying if i say tt i was not disappointed, or a little discouraged. The closer u get to pple, the more easily u get disappointed when things dun turn out the way u want them to. Oh and btw, i'm not depressed hor. I juz need to be more patient, and loving, and caring, and try again next time!! haha I will try again and again until.....Dun be too sensitive and tynk tt i'm talking about u, coz it might not even be u i'm talking about...

Found a nice quote anywae..and it has in no way anylink to the previous paragraph above..juz found it meaningful:
The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy. -Jim Rohn

And a farni quote:
There will always be death and taxes; however, death doesn't get worse every year. -Anonymous

Shiok! Driving is shiok! haha Limin agnes and weibin came to mi hse todae and of course the same old thing...played monopoly lar!! haha I dun haf any other board games wad..So when we all decided to leave, i DROVE them to the bus stop where it was convenient..Of course it was wif mi father's supervision, afterall no matter how genius i am, it's mi maiden voyage wif passengers and u certainly dun wanna find their faces in the orbituary page rite??

So i went to meet wenjun, the person i was attached to about 2 years ago. Well, we haven't met for close to 2 years and it's quite awkward initially...And she still smells the same!! HAHA i'm sure u all find this farni but when i said tt, she was juz about to comment tt i smell the same too!! haha so farni..anywae we decided to eat fish and co! at park mall and i must say tt they are seriously seriously understaffed there!!

And also, one of their malay staff has extremely serious short term memory loss...I juz remember placing our orders and after waiting for like 15mins, she came back and see tt our tables were empty, and asked us hu placed our orders...i was like ?!?..So she confirmed our orders, which were obviously on her list coz she was juz checking wif us and reported to the kitchen...like ARGH!! Damn hungry lar!! Waited for another 15min before we attacked our food like savage creatures...haha

Her corriander fish was not bad!! But i'm sure zx will hate it...coz it's marinated and the surface is full of corriander leaves, which is qing1 zong1 in other words..The pple there made a mistake coz wenjun wanted her fish to go wif rice, but they gave her chips instead..So they gave her a bowl of rice and she get to keep her fries!! They relly shld make more mistakes man...

After dinner, i asked for the bill and guess wad? After paying, i had to wait for 15min and still the change was not coming back!! I had to ask the lady, yes the same STM loss lady hu coincidentally also served mi the bill, for mi change and she was like ' They so long still haven't return u?' relly -_-...And only after another 5 mins then she returned mi the change...strange..it's either she has a twin, or relly she has STM loss...

We proceeded to walk to city hall and the esplanade and it's relly beautiful man...At night, that area is the most beautiful plac ein singapore...

okok i gonna end abruptly here...haha nite..

Hai...i know i am a genius, but in the end, even the genius cannot pass his driving test. It's all thanks to mi fren's sms..yes you!! *squints* I forgot to switch it to silent mode and there it went, ringing and vibrating and i was already so nervous lar...Din realised tt i was reaching a zebra crossing when the tester had to jam brake for mi...and i almost banged a guy down...hai...

For those who received mi msg todae, i bet u guys only read till here...And DIN bother to scroll down man...ok, so here's wad u'll see when u scroll down..

HAHAHA April's Fools!! Pass lar..how can the genius not pass his driving test...haha=p

All got tricked except for witty yy, who although also did not scroll down, but somehow suspected tt the genius mi wun be so careless as to leave mi hp in the un-silent mode, and moreover put it in mi pocket during the test...so credits to u!!

And zixu the bloody idiot..he actually laughed loudly when he tot i failed mi test man...wad a sadist!! haha wait till u haf ur auto car test then i'll laugh at u too...

Anywae i'm free!! Yes! I can drive now!! Wowee~! tt's like the best feeling ever in the world man, to be the person behind the wheel...now if only someone would lend mi her Lexus GS300, i'd do anything for her!! hahaha..Thx to all those who remembered and wished mi like seok fun and eexuan..thx man...U 2 are also dumbos, believing in the failure of the genius...Anywae for those expecting a free ride, get mi a car and i'll gladly drive u around...I only haf the software now, i still lack the hardware...haha

Happy belated April's Fools day to all u guys out there...Oh and btw..i forgot to say tt mi tester was a really grumpy old man..but i believe tt he was won over by mi skills in the circuit, because we did not take the test route tt was balloted around. Talking about tt test route, i juz drove along tt test route the day before mi test and i could still remember tt i mounted the damn kerb while making a right turn..Tt turning was relly difficult and sharp man..

So well, luckily he was grumpy and can't wait for everything to end and we took a simpler route. However, there were many many dumb obstacles along the way lar..like a van stopping at the side of a 1 lane carriageway..tt's relly dumb, coz i would haf to cross over to the middle in order to overtake him and moreover, it was DOUBLE WHITE LINES. For those who have completed their theory lessons, crossing these lines are a nono except when the tester asks you to. He was quite fedup tt i din overtake tt van early and proceeded to honk him like mad...see? Impatient and grumpy old man...

But oh well, i passed and tt's the most important bit yea? hahahaha Genius man i'd say...brilliant!