Ok this is the post...This is it, it's 12.10am wednesday and i juz can't control mi emotions any longer. Well, most of you know tt i'm going in at 3.45pm on thursday which is like 1 and a half days later and i'm currently feeling extremely emotional. And i juz wanna declare...I DUN WANNA GO NS!!!
Many pple will console mi by saying, "it's only 2 years while mine was 2.5 years", " Going into ns will make u a MAN", " it's not the end of the world!" i mean like of course i knoe all these lar...it's not because of fear, not because of anything particular but rather, i dun wanna live apart from mi home and mi frens.
I wanna come home daily to see mi parents and mi 2 sisters..I also wanna see all mi gd frens tt i've come to love after so many years...It's not the fear of lonliness, but it's the leaving part. A few months ago, binh left us for vietnam to visit her family and frens. I felt sad. This time, it's mi and zx's turn to leave, and of course i also feel sad. I can imagine how boring and mundane life is in the army.
However, i guess this is a phase all must go through; regardless of whether i want it or not. Of course there are some positive things like going to make some new friends, learning how to be more independent and so on. But i guess it's juz too little to compensate for the time tt i could have spent wif mi family and frens. And moreover, juz when i got the RARE desire to study and aim for mi BDS ( Bachelor of Dental Surgery ), i had to go and serve the nation.
Well, with all that said, i'm gonna prepare for mi dentistry interview tml man..Hope i do well enough to secure a place in nus...To all mi gd frens like zixu, janie, yue yiao, fiona, norman, agnes, D'euqilco, jasmine, binh, pple from AGAPE cell group and pple from 03s08..i hope tt u guys will not miss mi too much ok? But well, occasionally when u're bored, u might wanna send mi a little msg and i'll try mi best to reply..
It's also time to let go of mi captaincy of aflame football team. Speaking of which, the standards have started to plummet again and i'm relly quite worried..hopefully mi and liangfa's retirement will not cause the team to crash..I will definitely miss those jokers from the team, the numerous sunday afternoons playing beside church, and of course our historic victory a few weeks ago..
Also, mi volunteer work at the Bukit Ho Swee Family Service centre has halted. I guess the stint i had there exposed mi to pple who are unable to keep pace wif the modernisation of our society..I hope tt it wun be the last time tt they'll see mi there..
I can't believe it, the 3 months leading to ns has juz gone by like the wind. A few months ago i was juz starting to learn driving..and thankfully i got mi license now. A few weeks ago, i was still playing badminton wif yue yiao and her parents on saturdays. A few weeks ago, i also badmintoned ( somehow it's used as a verb by zixu ) wif zixu and am going to badminton wif him again later on in the day.
I can't exactly describe how i feel right now..hmmm....
Many pple will console mi by saying, "it's only 2 years while mine was 2.5 years", " Going into ns will make u a MAN", " it's not the end of the world!" i mean like of course i knoe all these lar...it's not because of fear, not because of anything particular but rather, i dun wanna live apart from mi home and mi frens.
I wanna come home daily to see mi parents and mi 2 sisters..I also wanna see all mi gd frens tt i've come to love after so many years...It's not the fear of lonliness, but it's the leaving part. A few months ago, binh left us for vietnam to visit her family and frens. I felt sad. This time, it's mi and zx's turn to leave, and of course i also feel sad. I can imagine how boring and mundane life is in the army.
However, i guess this is a phase all must go through; regardless of whether i want it or not. Of course there are some positive things like going to make some new friends, learning how to be more independent and so on. But i guess it's juz too little to compensate for the time tt i could have spent wif mi family and frens. And moreover, juz when i got the RARE desire to study and aim for mi BDS ( Bachelor of Dental Surgery ), i had to go and serve the nation.
Well, with all that said, i'm gonna prepare for mi dentistry interview tml man..Hope i do well enough to secure a place in nus...To all mi gd frens like zixu, janie, yue yiao, fiona, norman, agnes, D'euqilco, jasmine, binh, pple from AGAPE cell group and pple from 03s08..i hope tt u guys will not miss mi too much ok? But well, occasionally when u're bored, u might wanna send mi a little msg and i'll try mi best to reply..
It's also time to let go of mi captaincy of aflame football team. Speaking of which, the standards have started to plummet again and i'm relly quite worried..hopefully mi and liangfa's retirement will not cause the team to crash..I will definitely miss those jokers from the team, the numerous sunday afternoons playing beside church, and of course our historic victory a few weeks ago..
Also, mi volunteer work at the Bukit Ho Swee Family Service centre has halted. I guess the stint i had there exposed mi to pple who are unable to keep pace wif the modernisation of our society..I hope tt it wun be the last time tt they'll see mi there..
I can't believe it, the 3 months leading to ns has juz gone by like the wind. A few months ago i was juz starting to learn driving..and thankfully i got mi license now. A few weeks ago, i was still playing badminton wif yue yiao and her parents on saturdays. A few weeks ago, i also badmintoned ( somehow it's used as a verb by zixu ) wif zixu and am going to badminton wif him again later on in the day.
I can't exactly describe how i feel right now..hmmm....
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