Juz gonna post some random thoughts here. A few days ago mi platoon had a discussion to come up wif some mission statement for our next overseas exercise. Some of mi platoon mates suggested that we act more like real platoon commanders esp during combat situations and etcetc. Of course being the ever pragmatic and practical person, i said that we can never be like real platoon commanders in combat situation because firstly, we are not in an active combat unit and have never taken real man b4. Secondly, we do not haf the experience because most of us only get to be exercise pcs once during our whole ocs term and although some might say that we can observe even though we dun hold the appointment but i tynk tt's bullshit. Seeing is never the same as doing. As such, we can never gain the experience needed to be real platoon commanders.

Of course i was shot down, with something about contingency plans etcetc and then the whole discussion suddenly veered towards contingency plans and at tt point i can't relly be bothered to say much anymore because i tynk no one was prepared to hear wad i haf to say anywae. It's not that i disagree wif them totally. Of course i agree that as appointment holders, we haf to be one 'up' than the rest. To haf contingencies, to go back to basics etc. But to be able to command a platoon well and adapt super well to the limitless possibilities, i tynk that's beyond a normal cadet for now. Of course it's not impossible, there can be exceptional cadets who can do that but like i said, exceptional and quick thinking on the ground, skills that require years of experience to form. Since only exceptional cadets can do it, then y make it a platoon mission?

Anywae, i toked to mi buddy and he finally managed to convince mi that it's juz a war of words. On the ground itself, everyone will put in their best. Like wad he says, everyone can talk until the cow comes home but ultimately everyone will do their best.

And another issue about officers acting like one. I dun tynk i'm quite fit to be an officer because i dun tynk i am able to pretend and act like one. I dun believe in pretending, i believe in being miself and i dun relly care wad others tynk. Of course i'm matured enough to warrant when to be serious and when to play but still i dun like this image and facade thing. It's like being an officer is the ultimate cool shit in this world. Sure, 27 lives are in mi hands, more responsibility etc but wad has there got to do wif acting like an officer? So wad if the 27 men look up to u, does that mean that u must be serious 24/7 no talking in file etc all the regimental crap that i can't stand? Crap. I believe that no matter whether u're slack or serious, as long as u haf the capability and the standard, the men will still respect u, there's no need to put on airs and act like some bigshot.

I juz watched perhaps love with wenjun and i must say that it's quite a good chinese show. Interesting way of directing and of course the actress was good. I have been tynking about some relationship stuff lately and i somehow manage to convince miself of a theory. I feel that no matter how long u wait for a person, as long as it's a one-sided relationship, the chance of the couple getting together is virtually zero. Tynk about it, if u're close friends wif someone for 3-4 years, and yet it's a one-sided affair, eg u like him/her but the feelings aren't reciprocated, no matter how long u wait, how u manage to touch her wif ur sincerity and patience, she/he'll nv be able to reciprocate ur feelings. It means that the friendship is purely platonic and though she really really likes u and respects u, the x-factor that makes them interested in u is juz not present and over time, this will nv ever change. U'll simply remain as friends. Hopefully mi theory is wrong man..ha