Hi guys it's been a week and well, the week went well with mi meeting mi new colleagues and all and i juz realised that my upper study wayne was actually the ex president of the student council when i was still in sajc. Speaking of which, i'm currently listening to the sajc school song and i must say that after 3 years, i still can remember the tune of this song so well. A truly endearing and lovely song..
It's wierd but all the free time that i have have made mi melancholic. Outside i seem cheerful and hapyp and all, but inside i juz kept tynking abt many things and i really cannot concentrate at all!! I juz hope that day would go by quickly and i can carry on wif mi life and heck care abt everything liao.
Sometimes i really want to heck care about alot of things but i can't let go and that is seriously mi big weakness and everything else in the world juz adds on to this bad feeling and it's juz building and growing bigger and bigger in mi heart until now i start to feel abit repulsed and oppressed and i feel that soon i'll let go of everything. Feeling incredibly restless these days and i juz hope i can get down to work proper. Work keeps mi mind busy at least, i need something to occupy mi and to keep mi busy.
Anw, i recently read the 5 pple u meet in heaven during mi free time and i must say that it's a gd and decent book. It's an interesting read that i'd recommend. It's actually one of those books that managed to make mi feel a little bit touched and tynk about all the people tt i've come into contact wif. People whom i've loved, people whom i hate, people i barely even knoe, and people that i juz dun take notice of in everyday life. How all our lives are in 1 way or another intertwined wif each other.
Ever since i entered army, mi heart has began to grow darker and blacker. I've hatred in mi and i've anger in mi. Not only that, i'm stubborn and i've a short fuse when people say unkind things about mi. Sometimes i do admire those cool people who are able to be compose and juz ignore the person because i really lack this ability and somehow i juz can't control mi mouth and vulgarities will juz shoot out of it. Hatred and anger. And somehow, i've also become more proud, not due to mi being a 2nd lieutanent but mi being mi. Proud angry and full of hatred. How does tt sound man??
Mi buddy said tt i'm stubborn and in a way i kinda agree wif him. No matter wad others tynk or wad the majority tynk, if i have an opinion that totally differs from them, i'd almost never take their opinion and instead stick to mi own. I've become more critical of people and in a way bias towards those tt i can't stand. Well, after leaving ocs at least i wun see the well-known cunning fool anymore and i hope tt i'd never ever get to see him because the sight of him juz makes mi blood boil.
He always pretends to be ur fren and try to add fuel to the fire whenever u have a dispute wif another person but at the end of the day, he will backstab by badmouthing u in front of others too. I really hate such people man.
Ok anywae, i'm juz typing wadever i feel like saying and there's no particular order.
It's wierd but all the free time that i have have made mi melancholic. Outside i seem cheerful and hapyp and all, but inside i juz kept tynking abt many things and i really cannot concentrate at all!! I juz hope that day would go by quickly and i can carry on wif mi life and heck care abt everything liao.
Sometimes i really want to heck care about alot of things but i can't let go and that is seriously mi big weakness and everything else in the world juz adds on to this bad feeling and it's juz building and growing bigger and bigger in mi heart until now i start to feel abit repulsed and oppressed and i feel that soon i'll let go of everything. Feeling incredibly restless these days and i juz hope i can get down to work proper. Work keeps mi mind busy at least, i need something to occupy mi and to keep mi busy.
Anw, i recently read the 5 pple u meet in heaven during mi free time and i must say that it's a gd and decent book. It's an interesting read that i'd recommend. It's actually one of those books that managed to make mi feel a little bit touched and tynk about all the people tt i've come into contact wif. People whom i've loved, people whom i hate, people i barely even knoe, and people that i juz dun take notice of in everyday life. How all our lives are in 1 way or another intertwined wif each other.
Ever since i entered army, mi heart has began to grow darker and blacker. I've hatred in mi and i've anger in mi. Not only that, i'm stubborn and i've a short fuse when people say unkind things about mi. Sometimes i do admire those cool people who are able to be compose and juz ignore the person because i really lack this ability and somehow i juz can't control mi mouth and vulgarities will juz shoot out of it. Hatred and anger. And somehow, i've also become more proud, not due to mi being a 2nd lieutanent but mi being mi. Proud angry and full of hatred. How does tt sound man??
Mi buddy said tt i'm stubborn and in a way i kinda agree wif him. No matter wad others tynk or wad the majority tynk, if i have an opinion that totally differs from them, i'd almost never take their opinion and instead stick to mi own. I've become more critical of people and in a way bias towards those tt i can't stand. Well, after leaving ocs at least i wun see the well-known cunning fool anymore and i hope tt i'd never ever get to see him because the sight of him juz makes mi blood boil.
He always pretends to be ur fren and try to add fuel to the fire whenever u have a dispute wif another person but at the end of the day, he will backstab by badmouthing u in front of others too. I really hate such people man.
Ok anywae, i'm juz typing wadever i feel like saying and there's no particular order.
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