The past 2 weeks have been absolutely phenomenal man! The month before this 2 weeks have been a month of suffering. There was a lot of pain and darkness in my heart and try as i could, i couldn't deal with it and was just coasting through life, trying to persevere through the pain and i'm glad that there are people there who stood unwavering by me, just listening to me. Yup that's all i needed at that time, because i knew what i had to do just that i couldn't do it.
I wanted to continue to wrestle with God, to fight with him. He was speaking to me about something in my life, and i just did not want him to cut it away. But i knew in my mind that it had to be done and it must be done. So began the titanic struggle between my mind and my heart. And of course between God's will and my own. While the battle was taking place, the sickening darkness in my heart was growing, just like the black suit on spiderman, threatening to engulf me fully.
Thankfully, God brought this book into my life, called Ordering your Private World. Actually i had this book since 2005, just that i had so many books that i didn't really read it. And somehow through the promptings of my CGL and through my heart, i knew i just had to start reading that book first among others. And true enough, i gained timeless truth and wonderful insights into my own character and my walk with God.
And from then on, i just surrendered and gave up and was wonderfully restored. So great to not be fighting with God, and finally i grew up and understood more about myself and about God. It's indescribable.
Oh and to the people out there who think we only read bible, pray, worship on sunday only, you're wrong! That's why people always say christianity is not a religion. It's a life. A life as a disciple to the Master teacher Jesus. Reading bible, praying should be part of what a christian does daily. Maybe you guys think that christianity is a weakling religion, forever praying. But praying is not just we talking to god, but god also speaking to us and it's like a conversation. Abit out of this world and hard to explain but there's this relationship that's so special.
I'm so glad man. So happy. Excited again.
I wanted to continue to wrestle with God, to fight with him. He was speaking to me about something in my life, and i just did not want him to cut it away. But i knew in my mind that it had to be done and it must be done. So began the titanic struggle between my mind and my heart. And of course between God's will and my own. While the battle was taking place, the sickening darkness in my heart was growing, just like the black suit on spiderman, threatening to engulf me fully.
Thankfully, God brought this book into my life, called Ordering your Private World. Actually i had this book since 2005, just that i had so many books that i didn't really read it. And somehow through the promptings of my CGL and through my heart, i knew i just had to start reading that book first among others. And true enough, i gained timeless truth and wonderful insights into my own character and my walk with God.
And from then on, i just surrendered and gave up and was wonderfully restored. So great to not be fighting with God, and finally i grew up and understood more about myself and about God. It's indescribable.
Oh and to the people out there who think we only read bible, pray, worship on sunday only, you're wrong! That's why people always say christianity is not a religion. It's a life. A life as a disciple to the Master teacher Jesus. Reading bible, praying should be part of what a christian does daily. Maybe you guys think that christianity is a weakling religion, forever praying. But praying is not just we talking to god, but god also speaking to us and it's like a conversation. Abit out of this world and hard to explain but there's this relationship that's so special.
I'm so glad man. So happy. Excited again.
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