hmmm...i've been rather out of sorts lately...must have been the boredom of having to stay at home, or going out, wandering aimlessly...nv been wad i wanted to do...this break juz hasn't been the best, tt's all. Aimless, pointless...

Deep inside mi heart, i can feel the raging demon, waiting to burst out. I've been acting out of mi normal personality, acting fine, acting good, acting happy, but am i? Juz beginning to feel a bit of resentment, a bit of hate...

I tynk many pple knoe mi well. I do tynk i'm one of those problematic guys. Full of troubles, full of problems, whole life depending on others to pamper mi, to care for mi. Issit too much to expect someone to understand mi? Understand mi needs and understand mi wants? i guess it is. Juz so alone everywhere i go...the sense of aloneness and emptiness is back. There was no one to fill tt void...i wish for pple to pamper mi, to come and care for mi...issit relly too much to ask? Everywhere i go, bitterness accompanied mi. But hu can i turn to when everyone is troubled also? Shld i burden them and add on to their woes wif mi selfishness?

I feel neglected.